"Hello~! My name is Emiko Kouji, I'm a dedicated artist, English teacher, and lover of kitties. Right now I live in Tokyo, where I am currently trying to get by day-to-day. Most days are fun since I get to work with children and illustrate for books, but I am engaged in a personal war that I must fight daily. For all of my life, I have hidden what I have been fighting.
I look like an ordinary person to most. But what people don't know is that I have a heavy history of physical abuse and mental trauma. I experience PTSD flashbacks, diverse emotions, and depression episodes each day. I also have what is called dissociative disorder, in which I forget things within hours to cope. I see a personal doctor weekly so he can make sure I have not harmed myself.
When I was younger, I lived in a place that was considered impoverished. Money was always an issue. Even the schools were poorly maintained, and due to this some of the most vile people imaginable were in a position to teach young children. I was one such child, and we were subjected to punishments ranging from physical abuse, to standing in extreme heat. Some days, we would have to run in said heat.
At home, my babysitter would often hit me, and once locked me in a washing machine.
At the age of 11, I was molested and abused by someone I considered family. I did not think much of this when I was younger, but coming to terms is hard, as my immediate family never believed my experience. From then on, I have been silent about it.
Recently in 2018, I experienced the loss of my four beloved kitties. Each passed within months of each other from Feline Infectious Petronis (FIP), a form of coronavirus. I mourn for my kitties each day. This has made it all the much harder for me to move on with my aforementioned conditions, as I have flashbacks about them too.
My treatment is recommended by my doctor, and since I do not have the finances to afford $5,000 worth of treatment, I have turned to crowdfunding as a last resort. I would be placed in a hospital for two months. Treatment would consist of psychotherapy, and medications. I would receive a lot of counseling."