Self confidence help!

I have suffered from bad skun for many years and it affects my everyday life my lowest ebb was when a man followed me to tell me ny skin was bad since that day I have been paranoid I dedperately want a skin peel because I am dark skinned it is more expensive. I will turn 35 at the end if April and I want that to be a new year for me no matter how much make up I wear all I see is bad skin it's messing with my head and at times if it wasn't for my kids I think I would just stay in all day to avoid people but I can't. I hope if you read this I don't come across as shallow but as a person that wants to look in a mirror and like what they see because at the moment mirrors are my enemy and I try my best to stay away from them. The peel is my only hope I think but m6 funds are limited. Thank you for reading this x