Seeing the Love of my Life again

First of all, I want to say sorry to every fundraising campaign who tries to help children in needs, tries to collect enough funds to buy essential medicals or tries to help to improve the overall life quality for people who are worse off than us, compared to these campaigns my plea looks stupid and selfish, but I am desperate and this is my/our story.

I’m just a random guy from Germany who was able to fulfill one of his biggest dreams.

Due to scholarships, I was able to spend one semester abroad in the United States in 2018. I was just looking for a great time before I graduate in the beginning of 2020 and daily working routine wouldn’t allow those kinds of adventures anymore. And this is where it all started.

The day I arrived in the US and moved into my dorm room I met the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. All new students had a meeting in the common room to introduce themselves and get to know each other and there she was, sitting in her green Adidas top and a black pair of lululemon leggings on the bench smiling and looking at me. I am not believing in love at the first sight, because it is only based on the appearance and the subjective opinion on this appearance. Nevertheless, I can’t deny the fact that her contagious smile and the way she looked at me with those beautiful and dazzling brown eyes triggered something in me.

I had the feeling that I want and need to know this person who has the ability to enlighten every room she enters and infects every person with her pure and warm-hearted laughter.

To be honest I am not a really confident guy and I am really shy.

It took all my strength and courage in my body to ask this delightful girl for her number.

To my surprise she gave me her number and even replied when I texted her. We started hanging out, first we only hung out with others around but later it was only me and her anymore. We saw each other almost every day and I started to miss her when she was not around me, I started to miss her whenever she was not able to grab dinner with me, I started to think about her all the time, I started to fall in love with her.

She was able to cheer me up when I had a hard time, she was able to create a smile on my face when I was sad, I did not feel homesick once because in a really weird way she felt like home.

We were hanging out for more than a month and I wasn’t sure if she feels the same way about me as I did for her. I wanted to clarify things between us because I had the feeling she only wanted to be a good friend but I was scared to destroy or ruin the good friendship we built in this short time, but I needed to know. She felt the same way for me as I did for her and we ended up in a relationship.

We only had three more months left before I needed to go back to Germany and leave her back in the US, but those three months were one of the best times in my entire life so far.

We couldn’t have used the time better, we danced on a cruise ship, we had romantic candlelight dinners at the beach, we enjoyed every second with each other because we knew our time together is limited. The time came when we needed to say goodbye at the airport. I never cried like this before, when I gave her a goodbye-kiss and hugged her for more than 5 minutes, standing arm in arm, both pairs of eyes filled with tears, knowing that if the whole long-distance relationship is not going to work, we might never see each other again.

We made it through the first long-distance phase (three months) and are now facing the second one that could last till December.

I can’t hug her when she has a bad day, I can’t give her a kiss before she goes to sleep and after she wakes up, I can’t hold her hand when she feels alone.

By choosing me and our long-distance relationship and forgo normal relationship treats, she shows me how much she loves me and this makes me feel as special as possible.

Besides my pure and honest love for her I don’t have anything to give her. I’m a full-time student, I’m barely able to work, and all the money I earn is needed for my rent and living expenses. I am saving all the excess money to finance the plane ticket to US at the end of the year.

Her Birthday is in the middle of May and I would love to surprise her on this special day, waiting in her room which is filled with rose petals and candles, but sadly I don’t have the funds to do so. Please help me to give her the birthday present this amazing girl deserves.

I’m grateful for every cent that will be donated and help me to see the love of my life before the end of the year.

Thank you very much for your attention and time you spent reading this story.

Kind regards,

T.