I had aways wanted to become a teacher ever since when I was a child. But when my parents got separated i need to stop schooling to help my mom in supporting my younger sibblings. One of my employers, upon seeing my potentials encourage to acquire a college degree. Upon his advise i took up a computer course setting aside my dream of becoming a teacher for a better work security.. But right after I was able to finish college, the company ceased its operation. I transfered to a company where I was able to work for years... I got married and have a child. after 15 years i decided to leave the company to pursue my life long dream. my employer doesnt like the idea. Still i went my way. I took up some units of education to enable me to take the teacher's board examination. my journey was not easy, financially since my husband does not get good pay. The last quarter of 2013 was a fruitful one. I finished my certificate in teaching course, I got hired as a teacher aid by a private school. I passed the board exams, and we found out that I am pregnant with my second child, we've been waiting for it for 7 years.
But when the 2014 came in... all seems to be a bad luck. My husband got a problem with his work. the worst, my previous employer is now filing a case against me, setting me uo for unliquidated cash vouchers. they want me to pay them 32, 214.00 and 64, 023.00 philippine peso. I cant face a case right now or my licence to teach will be revoked. I was able to raise some money by selling some of our things. I need $2,000 more to settle everything.
Sometimes I think of taking my life. Ive been thinking of it for nights, One night my husband heard me crying and asked me, I told him about my problems and my plan of leaving them. He cried he said he will try to do his best to help me but until now he cant do anything because his employer does not want to approve his loans.
I want to end it all, but it hurts me that i will leave behind my 8 year old daughter. Who will be at her side when she cries at night? Who will wipre her tears and tell her that everything is alright? Who will answer when she calls out for me? And my husband, how would he be able to cope up all the pains that I might leave him. What if my former employer pursues him? And the baby in my tummy, so young, I wont even hear him cry,,, will he ever forgive me for not letting him see the world?
Please help me.
I promise to return your help to you or to others in the future, when things get better with me.
God bless us all.