I cannot reveal my identity or the identities of my children, for safety reasons.
My case continues to get more and more dangerous as time goes by and after already spending over $200,000 in legal fees for this case, my family and I are simply out of funds.
The bottom line for me right now is that if I cannot come up with approximately $20,000 to pay current outstanding fees to an American lawyer, and then pay an additional $20,000 retainer for a Court trial to try and undo the damage that a Canadian Child Protective Worker has caused, my 14 year old child is going to be sent to his abusive father where he says he has plans to kill himself.
Doctors and Counsellors say that the fact that this child actually has a "plan" with details of how he will kill himself, puts him at an "elevated" risk, but they cannot do anything to help this child if it interferes with an existing Family Court Order.
These professionals usually expect Child Protection Workers to step in and protect children, but in my case, the Canadian CAS Worker has been trying to send this child to his abusive father in the US where he says he is going to kill himself, and she has manipulated the American Family Court to doubt that this child's issues are real, which places him in immediate danger.
I have evidence that she has even lied to Canadian Police in her efforts to support the abuser in this situation.
Canadian Police have responded to my child's suicide messages on 2 occasions already and they helped save him those times, but the American Family Court has continued to order this child to visitation and I am at risk of being sanctioned as a criminal for "Custodial Interference" if I dare try to protect my child on my own. Canadian Police say the best thing to do is to seek protection from the American Family Court, but I cannot do that without the funds for the necessary legal fees to fight against the damage that the Canadian Child Protection Worker caused in my Family case with her lies and manipulations that were intended to satisfy her agenda in support of sending this child to his abusive father.
I have uncovered a lot of disturbing evidence and actual cover-ups related to the CAS Worker's agenda in this case that is quite shocking to see, and I would like to share the whole story to alert the Canadian public of the "Abuse of Power" that I have experienced, and to expose exactly how this CAS Worker has had zero qualms about actively putting my child's life at risk.
I do not want to lose a child to a suicide that can be prevented but I am in a situation where the only chance he has right now is if I can pay the necessary legal fees to present my evidence at the upcoming trial in the American Court to show how the Canadian Child Protection Worker has lied and manipulated and the child truly is in danger and needs protection. It is reasonable that an American Court would believe the word of a Canadian Child Protection Worker so this is why I have to fight as hard as I can to prove the truth and get the protection that this child needs. I am his only advocate right now, but I am helpless unless I can get the legal help required to represent me in the American system.
This child has already described his suicide plans to Canadian Police, Doctors, Teachers, Friends, etc, but the ultimate decision to protect this child lies with the American Family Court and I have evidence that this Canadian Child Protective Worker has contaminated the American Family Court case with her lies and manipulations.
The child says if he has to go with his abusive father, he says he will kill himself.
He has already attempted at school recently when he became overwhelmed at the thought of an upcoming visit with his father, and the school had to call Police and Ambulance to take him to the hospital for an attempted suicide.
After the last time this Child Worker was telling my child that she was in support of him visiting his father, my child asked me, "Mommy why does she WANT me to kill myself?" He said that she knows he has plans to kill himself if he has to go with his father, so by her wanting to send him there, means to him that she WANTS him to die. She WANTS him to kill himself.
This is how the Canadian Child Protection Worker has affected my child.
He doesn't understand why she won't "protect" him and why she actually "wants" him to kill himself, and this is playing on his mind on top of everything else.
I am literally fighting a "life or death" situation right now but my hands are tied without legal representation.
I have tried to get help for the children from the Office of the Children's Lawyer, however, they can only take cases that are sent to them through a Canadian Family Court and in my situation, it is an American Family Court that has jurisdiction so my children cannot qualify for their own lawyer at all. It is all up to me to come up with the additional funds to continue with the services of an American lawyer.
Canadian Police have been frustrated with the Child Protective Worker and have expressed to her that her actions in support of sending this child to his father would be considered "facilitating a suicide", but this worker has still been in support of sending the child to his father, and she has even lied and manipulated in collaboration with my abusive ex-husband in the US to try and make the American Court believe that this child does not have real issues and that the father is not a danger at all. This Child Worker even LIED to Canadian Police and denied any knowledge of the serious Domestic Violence history, contrary to all of the evidence I have in my files. I have SO MUCH evidence to share...
I am very thankful to the "Member of Provincial Parliament" Office that took the time to review my concerns that I had carefully documented to present to them. The MPP Office contacted the Program Supervisor at the Ministry of Children, Community and Social Services, and also forwarded my documented presentation to the Children's Aid Society's Director. I then asked to meet with the Worker's Supervisor personally to go over some of my initial concerns as I was requesting that this particular Worker stay away from my children because of how she had become a danger in particular to my suicidal son.
The Worker was immediately taken off my case, and CAS is now looking to close my case entirely, however, this leaves me on my own to clean up the dangerous mess that this Worker has left behind.
The fact that this Worker was taken off my case is validating, but it does not help the matter because the damage is already done and I am left on my own to fight to keep my child from carrying out his suicide plans if he is sent to his father, and the Worker's involvement up to this point has already put him right in the line of fire, and as already explained, I cannot try to undo the mess caused by this Worker without the necessary funds for an American lawyer. While I am confident in my own content-writing abilities, and while I do have substantial probative evidence to present, I am not a lawyer and thus ill-equipped to navigate the nuances of the American Family Court system on my own. (I have stories to share from the past, how I endeavoured to represent myself for a while due to lack of funds, but was clobbered by the aggressive adversary during a hearing despite my evidence of the truth, and the children suffered consequences as a result at the time...)
For background context, I moved back to Canada from the United States with my children for our safety following what an American Judge stated to be one of the more extreme cases of Domestic Violence that even marched through his courtroom.
Many individuals who have touched this case over the years, including Detectives, Police Officers, FBI Agents, Canadian & US Foreign Affairs Officials, Domestic Violence Advocates, Crisis Counsellors, etc., have all commented at one time or another how in all their years of doing the types of work they do, they have never come across a case like this before.
"He" was trying to kill me and make it look like an accident or a suicide and he was doing other things to me that I would rather not mention right now but two of the children were in the house at the time. One was five years old and and the baby was two years old – they were both left unattended while I was restrained upstairs enduring his torture episodes...
That's the genesis of this case.
After the Criminal case settled, I thought things would get better for my children and I once we moved back to Canada but things actually have gotten progressively worse and I have come to the point where I honestly wish I could go back and suffer all of the abuse again because if I hadn't been freed from him myself, then I believe he wouldn't have turned to the children so much to continue his abuse and control, and two of my children would not have become suicidal as a result...
I will be sharing more of my story when it is safe for me to do so, especially because I want to educate other victims in similar situations on ways to avoid some of the things that have happened to my children, however, for the time being I need to reach out for help covering the costs involved in undoing the dangerous actions of this Canadian Child Worker that is putting my 14 year old child at risk for self-harm and suicide.
I turned to Canadian Child Protection Workers for help, and they betrayed the children.
It is incomprehensible that this particular Child Protective Worker is actually putting my 14 year old at risk of carrying out his suicide plans.
Even though I have a lot of Canadian evidence, my hands are tied in the American Family Court without an American attorney to advocate on my behalf and on behalf of the children.
As previously mentioned, I have already spent over $200,000 in legal fees during the past 8 years fighting ongoing abusive post-judgement litigation since the divorce, and I was able to hire an attorney again recently to help with this latest situation where my child is telling everyone he is going to kill himself, but funds have simply run out and I just received the latest bill that is due which is close to $15,000 for services already rendered, and for the upcoming trial that will be scheduled soon, I am going to have to provide a $20,000 retainer. The invoices will continue to add up thereafter as well...
If I cannot make payments to keep my attorney, there is no way that I can handle this dangerous custody case on my own, having to prove to an American Court that a Child Worker in my own country has been lying and manipulating this case. I have to make the Court understand that this Child Worker cannot be trusted and the fact is that if my child has to go with his father, he has already decided he is going to end his life, and he has plans as to how he is going to do it.
It is very frustrating that this new Child Protective Worker has created such a dangerous situation for the children, especially my suicidal child right now. This Worker has been covering for my ex-husband, actively avoiding acknowledging any sort of documentation that proves the dangers that I have been presenting to her, even oddly taking the blame for HIS violation of a previous safety plan. She has paid zero attention to the fact that he is a convicted criminal with a serious Domestic Violence past, and I have evidence that she pretended to Canadian Police that she had no idea of any Domestic Violence history.
The previous Child Protective Worker, who was very supportive and understanding, was specifically assigned to my case originally because of her knowledge and awareness of the dynamic of a Domestic Violence situation. She had that "Domestic Violence Lens". Based on the facts, and based on things that the children kept reporting, the previous Worker verified multiple times in writing that the children were at risk of emotional harm with their father but she was not able to do anything to help protect the children at the time because CAS said they were powerless because of issues with jurisdiction. As mentioned before, even though we are Canadian Citizens, living in Canada, it's an American Court that has jurisdiction over our Family case.
A mental health professional a few years earlier had also verified that the children were at risk of harm with their father, and this was while he was still under Supervised Visitation, however, because there was no evidence that he was hurting the children physically during the visits, (which took place in front of Probation Officers at the Courthouse), his supervision was eventually lifted and as time went by, the concerns for the children's mental health issues started coming true.
The oldest child was self-harming during 2015 and planned a suicide, stating in private suicide notes that it was because of the father. If I had not found the notes and plans in time, ........
(I cannot bring myself to complete that sentence...)
This child was then immediately exempt from visitation, however, the younger siblings were still required to go visit their father despite the concerns that the oldest child had come out with.
Then the 2nd child was admitted to a mental health unit 2 years later and has been having anxiety issues ever since, stating that it is because of her father's abusive behaviour that she has been dealing with, but she has still been required to visit her father and I was even threatened by the American Court with sanctions for "Custodial Interference" if I do not force her to go. (Custodial Interference, by the way, is an offence that is punishable by a jail term of 3-5 years.)
Now, this 3rd child has opened up about having issues with wanting to self-harm and thoughts of suicide, stating that he will kill himself if he has to go with his father. He has been hospitalized 6 times in the past few months, one of which resulted from a call from his school to Police and Ambulance after he took out scissors in class and said he wanted to kill himself because of having to go visit his father that weekend.
When Police helped on 2 recent occasions, they were recommending that this child not be sent to his father because of how it would be considered "facilitating a suicide" however, the American Judge is ultimately ordering that this child visit with his father while a trial is pending.
It is really hard to believe that this current "Child Protection Worker" even lied to the Police in her effort to justify her position in support of the abusive father. I have been provided with the Police Records and I have the evidence that proves her intentional and dangerous lies. Police Officers expressed frustration with this Worker as well, not understanding why this Worker was in support of sending my child to the place where he says he is going to kill himself. The Police were the ones who were notified of one of my child's suicide messages that he sent out to his friends announcing that he was not going to be coming back from visiting his father; that he was going to hang himself.
At the end of his suicide message, he signed off with his name, his birth year, and his death year.
That was so hard to read.
I am so grateful that Canadian Police saved him that day, but he is still planning on killing himself if he has to go with his abusive father and I am so angry that this Child Worker has contaminated the American Court Case with her lies and manipulations that has resulted in this child still being ordered to visit his father.
My child has been reaching out for help and I have exhausted all avenues in both countries to get him the protection he needs but I keep getting referred back to the American Family Court and I cannot get anywhere with the Court unless I can pay the legal fees required to have my case presented effectively and fight against what this Canadian Child Worker has done to put my child's life at risk.
I have reached out to Canadian legal systems for help and I have presented my case to multiple Canadian organizations asking for assistance to help save this child, but I continuously get re-directed to the American Family Court system.
My only option is to try and raise the funds for the American legal fees necessary to navigate this case and save his life.
So I am asking for help on this platform - I need help save my child from a suicide that is so easily preventable...
I have been asked to do a video interview but I am afraid of the potential dangers...however, if I decide to go ahead, I will upload the video clips here about my story...
Thank you for listening...