I left my ex partner on 1st April 2012 due to emotional abuse, he would threaten me about what would happen if I decided to leave etc and started on my daughter who was 7 at the time. I had a son with this man who at the time I left was 7 months old. I just took the kids and went back to my mum's. I worked , so would let him see his son still but he constantly kept trying to butter me up, when I said there was no chance of us getting back together he really turned nasty , more threats and made things very difficult so I said it had to go to court. I went into hiding for 2 weeks till the court date came through , he would follow me in his car and block me in on streets , the police were called several times but all they said was people do funny things when you split up with them or they could actually be dealing with somebody who was getting beaten up. The court was horrible, I left the house leaving all my stuff and children's things so had to replace it, he just simply told the courts he didn't have it. He lied to the courts and told them I'd threatened to kill the kids and even got his mum to back him up , because of the abuse I was seeing a counsellor and he used it against me. My solicitor at the time suggested I quit work because the courts would favour the dad because he didn't work and could stay at home with my son. When I told the courts this was the reason I did it my ex suggested I did it so I didn't have to continue paying solicitors fees and would get legal aid. By the time the courts agreed I was sane and dad was lying about my mental state my son was in a routine by where he spends half the week with dad and half the week with me , I went to back to work and had to change my hours round a few times to accommodate pick ups and drop offs , my wx wasn't allowed neat my house , once the final court date had finished my ex proceeded to try and run me off the road , I called the police but they said it was his word against mine and no cctv was about. I had both children in the car!! I got a 6 month non molestation order with the help of women's aid. Years have gone and I'm constantly in a battle , my son's behaviour and the things he's been witnessing. My son at the age of 3 told me daddy was going to kill me and he was going to help him. I've kept reporting incidents to police and social services but nothing's been done as they can't see a problem with his parenting. My son for the past year has been saying he hates his life and he wants to kill him self, a family support worker has been involved and all dad says is he doesn't say these things when there. The support worker admitted that my ex still thinks he has control over me through my son and won't let go , but that doesn't effect his parenting. He'd tell the school my son had sickened and was ill so he wasn't allowed into school on the days I had him , then when I had words with the school they excepted what I said and I could ignore these so called illnesses ( I would have to stay at home with my son) then he just started keeping him off school so that when it was my turn to fetch him if have to go to him. I've tried mediation twice which I've had to pay for but nothing comes about. Then this September my son tells me he is scared of his dad and he hits him hard , I report to school, social, my son tells the school and social what he told me , I keep my son until it's investigated , the social promise to put parenting classes in place , so my son goes back, he goes back for one night then my son retracts his statement and tells me he can't tell me anything anymore. Daddy's told him I'm a girl and I'm stupid etc etc. My son continues to say he hates his life so I take him to the doctors , who puts an emergency appointment in to get assessed. At a social meeting I tell dad that they said my son needs counselling but he said he's not having him questioned or talking to anybody so he's not going. I've been to see a solicitor. I'm still in debt from him before. I've been quoted around £5000 To £6000 For solicitors fees as Its going to get messy. I know I can't have my son full time with me but I need full custody and less time with dad to help him. I'm not entitled to any help. I'm hoping somebody can help me and my son out x any money I don't use will be donated to the women's refuge as I'm going to try and do as much as I can myself x thank you for reading.