Save my home

My children and I are on the verge of losing our home.
My name is Onica Blaize. I am currently at my lowest moment in life. Because of my mistakes and not sensible decisions, my children and I will lose our home. I have worked since I am 15 years old and I have always wanted a better life and to give my children opportunities that I didn’t have. I have a good life, a job, family and friends who care. I know that there are people out there that are worse off than me and I am not trying to diminish that. I wanted to own my own home and I went for it. I wanted to show my oldest daughter that she can do anything even if everyone says it won’t work. I bit off more than I could chew and wanted it so bad that I took a mortgage that is too high for me. I ended up filing for chapter 13 and I am behind on my payments. Currently my mortgage company has informed me that on May 18, 2020, they will file to have the bankruptcy thrown out because I did not meet the terms. I am embarrassed, ashamed and so disappointed in myself that I allowed this to happen. Because of my bad choices and mis-management of my funds , my children will be left homeless. I serve as a mentor to young girls, a life coach and I cannot even manage my own life. I am so ashamed. I prayed and asked God to help me and to keep me from this embarrassment. I know that it will take a miracle to help me out of the horrible place that I did to my family. There is no excuse. I am smart, successful, do not do drugs and most of all; I should know better. I put myself in this situation and I am asking God to help me out of it. As I sit her wide awake and terrified of what the future holds and how this will play out. I decided to seek help from anyone that is in a position to help me and my family. I know that this is a long shot but I wanted to try. This would be God connecting me against all odds. I am asking for your help. Please help, I do not know where else to turn and I am scared.