Save from Mental illness and Violence.

Hi, I'm Elly.

I'm suffering with chronic and severe depression and Anxiety.

Let me tell my strory.
My mom had depression like me. so she use to abused when I was little child. but I have survived. and when I grow up more, I have to go to school, I had socialphobia because of my teacher was very violence. so I didn't have place to be safe.

And, As I was middle school and high school student, I've starting to harm myself. school life was so terrible, I was still live in violence. so I started to hurt myself and attemp to suicide. I ask to my parents for mental clinic, but they refused because of cost for it. Even though doctor suggested hospitalization to locked ward, they refused.

Few years later, I got first job.
But Boss doesn't give my salary on time, work was so miserablely terrible. I had to sleep at office to finish my work. And my mental illness gotting worse.

After that, I had a chance to work, but I had to quit because of my mental illness. I was still suicidal, so I used to go Emergency room to treat wounds or etc .
I spend most of my salary to mental clinic and Emergency room.

Now I can't find any job anynore.
My doctor said I need to get treatment and be hopitalization. but me and my family don't have enough money. And I have no way to get money to live. And I have a dept to credit card company for paying the bills and cost for clinic. It is around 10000$.

Now my parents kicked me out from home, I don't have place to stay now. so I sleep at 24hour open cafe or internet cafe, or street or buildings stairway.

Please help. I need anyone's help.
Nobody can save but you.

Thanks for read this and sorry for bad english.