Hi, I'm Elly.
I'm suffering with chronic and severe depression and Anxiety.
Let me tell my strory.
My mom had depression like me. so she use to abused when I was little child. but I have survived. and when I grow up more, I have to go to school, I had socialphobia because of my teacher was very violence. so I didn't have place to be safe.
And, As I was middle school and high school student, I've starting to harm myself. school life was so terrible, I was still live in violence. so I started to hurt myself and attemp to suicide. I ask to my parents for mental clinic, but they refused because of cost for it. Even though doctor suggested hospitalization to locked ward, they refused.
Few years later, I got first job.
But Boss doesn't give my salary on time, work was so miserablely terrible. I had to sleep at office to finish my work. And my mental illness gotting worse.
After that, I had a chance to work, but I had to quit because of my mental illness. I was still suicidal, so I used to go Emergency room to treat wounds or etc .
I spend most of my salary to mental clinic and Emergency room.
Now I can't find any job anynore.
My doctor said I need to get treatment and be hopitalization. but me and my family don't have enough money. And I have no way to get money to live. And I have a dept to credit card company for paying the bills and cost for clinic. It is around 10000$.
Now my parents kicked me out from home, I don't have place to stay now. so I sleep at 24hour open cafe or internet cafe, or street or buildings stairway.
Please help. I need anyone's help.
Nobody can save but you.
Thanks for read this and sorry for bad english.