From the first day of my life I had to fight for my existence in this world. And this struggle continues to this day. Someone fate gave beauty, someone beautiful mind, someone just luck and happiness, and she gave me the strength, moral strength to resist the blows of fate, ridicule from those who had the beauty and amazing mind, who was the owner of luck and happiness, I had to resist bullying in school and at the same time keep healthy your mental state, faith in human kindness and just faith in something good in this world and most importantly the belief in myself that I can overcome everything and survive.
I know that in a situation like me, there are tens of thousands of people, as a result of which, some adapt to life, others break down, and others simply exist. I was able to adapt to life, to transfer all operations and treatments, to graduate from ordinary school, to enter the University without benefits, on a common basis. Get married and have a beautiful baby. It seemed that all this horror has ended, that here it is happiness. There was still quite a bit to heal and 2-3 operations, and all past will be forgotten as the most horrible dream. But it didn't. Two years ago, I had an operation, expensive, with all the costs the amount was within 8000 dollars, it is for a simple citizen of our country is not small money. We thought with mom that as usual, we will cope and pay. After the operation, I was in for a surprise, my husband left me with the child alone. And two months later, my child was diagnosed with "Delayed speech development and mental retardation." Fortunately, the diagnosis does not threaten life, but it threatens the normal development and the future of the child, which can lead to many negative consequences. I myself experienced a lot, didn't want to and daughter has faced with that horror. Visits to doctors, consultations, examinations and treatment began. Speech pathologist-speech pathologists, psychologists. All this is expensive in our country. I was actively looking for work, though there was a prohibition from the doctors after the operation that no work half of the year. But it was necessary to see and think about the child. There was no one to hope for. But seeing me, denied everything,but if offered, the wages are not enough even to feed themselves, but there are debts and treatment of the child.
If in short about my disease and situation, was born "full of unilateral nezareatmene soft and hard palate and upper lip". In childhood was done 4 operations. But they were not successful. Speech therapists were engaged, but then refused to engage. Payment for operations, treatment and speech therapists completely fell on mother. We did not have their own housing, because the factory where my mother worked, at us the apartment is not enough, and to buy it no matter what, all the money went to me. Operations resulted in deformation of the nose and lips of the milestones. The nose was not just terrible, but being mutilated, scars and deformity of the jaw and upper teeth. But I did not break down and continued to fight for their existence in this world, because I dreamed of the simplest but so important in my life and it gave me strength, and I had my mother.
After school, I went to University, to the faculty of psychology. Everyone was talking about the fact that this is a big mistake to send me there to study, I do not belong there. But the teachers were understanding, bandmates, too. I continued treatment at the orthodontist so that I could do another surgery inside and correct the consequences after those failed surgeries. At the age of 28 I had an operation and I finally got rid of that mutilated face, I was not looked at with the horror as before. But it turned out, that not always lack ownership forces. All those events over the past two years, pulled all that was possible with us, we were in debt, very large debts, this time we could not cope on their own.
having to pay for the operation, I had to treat my daughter, it was impossible to postpone. Tried to negotiate with the banks to delay or vacation credit was granted, but refused. I started to go to work abroad, I work hard tirelessly, but my salary is still not enough to pay for everything. Interest pulled everything to not have problems with banks, because it could serve as an obstacle to travel abroad, and this piece of bread, treatment of the daughter and what we live on and I somehow still pay off debts, I could not risk, so I had to borrow money from a private person,too, interest.
I have already paid more than $ 5,000 for the year, but the situation is only getting worse and I can not cope with all this. Sometimes it seems easier to die than to continue to fight, but there is a daughter for whom I am responsible and my mother, I can not do this to them. For me it is a very large amount, please help me. I can't do anything good for you, but I can pray to heaven that you're all right. Although I am one of a thousand and all is simply not possible to help, but for my daughter and mother I am one, the only one, we have no one but each other, we are one on one in this world, all my life with their problems. Thank You for taking the time to read my story