Hi my name is Natalie. I am bipolar and suffer from PTSD and chronic anxiety. I have no support from my family and I'm currently living with my parents, unfortunately they have caused a number of my mental health problems. My mother is emotionally, mentally and physically abusive while my dad has been absent for a huge part of my life.
Both parents do not let me see psychologists or any kind of professional at all; because my mother thinks it is a spirit that can be removed by praying for it to go away.
My parents expect me to act and behave a certain way that is not at all who I am; I'm not allowed to go out with friends and I can only go to school and back. My mother would hit me a lot when I "bad mouthed" her to people who are trying to help me out of my situation.
A year ago I tried to kill myself after she had beaten me to the point where I had major internal bleeding on my back and thighs. When doctors counseled us together, she said she was glad she beat me so she could find out what was wrong with me, she then had me cut off my friends because she thinks they have been feeding me lies about her. After finding out about my diagnosis she had me starved and just insisted that suicide was the devil's work and that I would go to hell if i killed myself. Even though she knew about my diagnosis she did nothing to help.
Recently, things have gotten worse and after finding out that I am bisexual, they are threatening to cut me off entirely and disown me unless I repent.
I constantly feel as though i cannot be who I need to be and it's very suffocating.
I currently need funds to move out of my homophobic parents' home, fund my schooling for about a semester and to help me get enough money to go job hunting so i can sustain myself once they cut me off.
It would be a great help if you could donate as little as you are able to give. Majority of the funds will go towards my tuition and the rest for paying for a small room and money to find a job and bus fares.
Thank you so much for your help, it means more to me than you could ever imagine. It will make it safe for me to be myself once I move out.
I am not able to show my face because if they find out that I'm trying to leave things would get even worse for me.
Thank you again.