I try extremely hard to get ahead, to make ends meet, to just do this life thing by myself, because everyone else around me makes it look so easy. Everyday is a struggle and every day is filled with worry and panic about how I will pay my bills and still be able to have money for food and for gas to get to work, where I spend 40 hours of my week of not more. Every time I have money left after bills, they go to other expenses like debts or some unforeseen expense I wasn't planning for. I'm so tired every single day... I just want to get out of debt or at least get just A LITTLE ahead, so that I can begin taking care of my debts by myself, start paying on them each month... Something. What I would give to know what it feels like to have a savings account with actual savings in it, or to have money set aside for those unforeseen expenses and not have to break my back or rack my brain trying to figure out what I'm going to do in a situation where money is required. Everything is piling up and I'm behind on rent and late on utilities, my car is on its last leg and I don't know what else I can do. I try so hard everyday to be a decent, hardworking member of society. But I feel like I'm suffocating under the weight of working so hard everyday and having nothing to show for my struggles..