Remembering baby Dylan

in 2012, i was diagnosed with vasa praevia during my pregnancy. i had a c section at 33 wks. unfortunately my little dylan passed away at 2 days old. He suffered hemorrhage, oxygen starvation, bruising and multi organ failure. my two older sons aged at the time 6 and 4 where hit so hard. william the oldest found it so difficult. he is a very caring young boy. i'm type 1 diabetic and he helps me so much. we want to be able to buy dylan a perfect head stone that is perfect for him. in june 2013 i gave birth to another little boy who unfortunately has tetralogy of fallot. he has already at age 3 months underwent open heart surgery. which was so hard because i had to be away from my 2 boys during this time. We are constantly going up and down from st Thomas hospital for his checks as he will need further surgery at some point. When we got to come home from st Thomas after his surgery, I had forgotten to look after myself. November 15th I was rushed into medway and put on acute medical care. Again William and Ben had to watch someone they lived go into hospital. December 9th Taylor was admitted into medway with bronculities and was put on oxygen. all this has put massive strain on my oldest william, he gets scared when we go in hospital because he is terrified we won't come back like his brother Dylan. he and his brother ben have therapy every week at their school and a social worker who has also been helping them understand what happened to Dylan . So I'm trying to raise enough money to get Dylan a headstone he deserves since his death was a mistake made my a certain hospital and to make sure I can support my family with the trips to London for Taylor's checks and future operations to come.