relevance in life

hello, my name is Susanne and i live in Berlin. i don't know how to start, because there are so many things to tell, so i try to be as short like nobody: 30 years old, 6 years old son, nearly divorced after more than 10 years relationship, few months before the doc told my i have cancer, 2 operations, the same time started my new studies (Business Administration), before this i studied literature (full degree: M.A.) and worked nearly two years. now i have a job in renting and cleaning rooms for tourists, but i am at a point bringing everything in question. hard to say what i feel. i need to calm down but can't. on the one hand because of the money, i need (to study, to pay for my son's school, the laywer and everything else and to become indepentend). on the one hand i know it's partly a personal problem because i always try to give my best. i have a few dreams...like renting my own apartment, or studying slower to have more time for my son, engage a help for the household...there are so many things but many of them depend on money. that's it. i know life is hard for nearly everybody, i really know that every person has his/her own problems.