Producer wants to eat

Music production is a great pleasureb and something i rally enjoy doing, but curent situation in my country doesnt allow me to enjoy and grow as much as possible. My limitation is working on old crappy last decade laptop with free trial software and cheap heapdhones and no instruments...... as it seems I want to much it just things that are must for production and without them is almost impossible. I want to raise money to be able to get some kind upgrade towards my home recording studio..