I hate to ask for help but I have no other options.
I'm really badly struggling. I need to get two surgeries in order to be able to live a normal life.
I am going to upload videos on YouTube of what happened, what's going on and how donations have changed my situation for the better!
About me and my situation:
I'm Jonathan, a transgender/transsexual man. My pronouns are: he/him. I'm 26 years old. I'm struggling with people not being accepting and supportive where I live. I'm a survivor of childhood abuse both in family and in school. I've never had a normal life, constantly having fighting for myself, not having safety in my life. I have big dreams of doing good in this world and changing many people's lives for the better. But to be able to help, let alone be a functional member of society, I first need to get help myself.
Being raised in abuse I learned to only hate myself. Took me many years to learn I should try to be loving to myself, so here I am. I need 2 surgeries to be able to start living. One is hysterectomy. While normally it is not a surgery most trans people need to have, my doctor told me after seeing my test results that I'll have to have hysterectomy, otherwise I will get cancer . I am very much more likely to get cancer in those organs, -that are not supposed to be in my body, anyway- than other people. This surgery costs about €1800. The other one I'm in big need is "top surgery", which is correcting my chest to fit my gender, basically getting a flat, male chest. It is the biggest part of why people misgender me. Getting misgendered triggers my debilitating gender dysphoria, which causes horrible panic attacks. I've lost my previous jobs because of constant panic attacks, anxiety and panic disorder . It's been horrible experiences I wish upon no one. All my life I've been struggling with severe depression , and I'm also on the autism spectrum (with Asperger's Syndrome).
Top surgery costs about €2200. Where I live, I cannot change my name, which is the other reason I'm being misgendered. The rest of the money will be used for paying for my ongoing hormone therapy, and the traveling fees for the name change. Hormone therapy costs so much, we need to cut back on food, already, there's no way I could afford any of the surgeries without help. Since I cannot work like this. I'm stuck in this endless cycle and I need your help to break out of it! So please, help if you can!
I plan on making a series of videos on YouTube that I'll link here. It will be voice recordings of me telling you about my past and present struggles, how others' help affected my life positively so far and hopefully in the future as well, counting on YOU!
I cannot promise to give you personally anything back, but I do promise that if you save my life with this, I will do everything I can to give back to others. About that, I also want to make a recording about my dream and plans about it. How I'm planning to support many others in the future! :)
How you can help:
Please read my story , and once I uploaded YouTube videos further explaining things, listen to those as well, and if you can, please share my fundraiser wherever you can, and donate if you can!
Thank you so much for even reading this, it means the world to me that there's someone, who cares! Thank you! :)