Well I grew up with an abusif father. He was an extremist, he could beat me for listening to music, wearing jeans or even talking to male friends. I was beaten at least once a week. I just wanted to have a normal childhood, wear normal clothes. A dress not a scarf on my head at the age of 11. Years after, I decided to get married, I thought that will be an escape. Unfortunately I just moved from hell to another. I get slut shamed every single day. Slut, whore, bitch ... Also that I'm nothing and I will never achieve something in my life. Even in bed I feel like raped. I have child now and I'm pregnant in 8th moth. I dont my children to live this, also I cannot stand it. The only thing that prevents from suicide is my son. Please help I want to run away go back to Europe(I live in morocco since childhood) when I was born and take my childs with me. I want to continue my education, get a job, be a human and be free for the first time of my life. The amount Im collecting is fees for my son passport, flights tickets and some cash. I will be greatful to anyone who helps me, because it's a matter of life. Please I want to live.