Please restore my faith in humanity

I have spent my life helping people and animals who are desperate and destitute, rescuing a multitude of creatures from terrapins to chipmunks and homeless people to addicts. I am proud of the fact that I literally saved the life of a friend when he had a cardiac arrest. I guess it was only natural that I started training to become a nurse.

Over the past 3 months I have been fighting to have two despicable bullies reprimanded for making my life a misery in my hospital placement. Unfortunately in order to pursue my complaint I had to cease working in my temporary health care position and as a result I have accrued arrears in my rent and household bills. Although I am now able to work again, due to having to work 37.5 hours a week unpaid for my placement hours, I don’t have enough time to work many extra hours for pay. I’m killing my self trying to keep my head afloat and battling depression because of it.

I have had to inform my daughter and grandchildren that I cannot be with them at Christmas, they don’t know that the reason why is because I don’t have any money to buy them even the smallest of gifts. I know that they would understand but I can’t face the shame. I’m often sat in the cold and dark because I cannot put credit on my meters and somehow managing to survive on one small meal a day.

I pray that one day things will get better and karma will reward me for the good things I have done but sometimes it seems that bad things happen to good people.

Everyone needs a helping hand at some point in their life and at the moment I’m that person.

Thank you