My name is Karina and I am 26 years old and currently struggling with debt and depression from a battle with an eating disorder. I am doing much better now with eating and have taken care of that struggle (on my own) which lasted several years.
I moved out of my parent’s house when I was 20 and with this new-found freedom came a lot of insecurities. I started buying a lot of food. Sometimes ordering from up to 3 places in an evening and eating everything. This led to me feeling terrible about myself and throwing everything up. After that I would not allow myself to eat more than 300 calories in a day to punish myself.
I was doing pretty well in early 2016, I was eating healthy, I was doing better with my money, I had a plan. I got pregnant with my long time boyfriend, and that changed my world. I followed every health guide, I ate healthy, took all my vitamines, did moderate exercise, did so much research. I was the happiest I had ever been. And then I lost the baby. I was devastated. And I fell back hard into my old routine.
It was a terribly hard time but I overcame it and now I am getting back to a normal healthy life. I am extremely hardworking and work long hours but I always make time for others around me who need help. I am even organizing a fundraising campaign at work for local charities. Unfortunately, that lifestyle came with consequences and I managed to build up quite a lot of debt over the years. Despite trying my best to save I am barely managing a to make a dent in my debt because of the incredible amount of interest I pay.
I desperately need help getting out of debt because that is the last hurdle in overcoming this disorder; taking care of the consequences it has left behind. I have spoken to a financial advisor who is ready to help me manage my money once a get my debt down, but first I have to show him that I can do it.
I do not want to burden my parents, grandparents or friends with this because I love them dearly and I have always been taught not to ask for help with money… I am trying any way possible right now. I have even started writing a novel about eating disorders which combines my love for writing and for helping others. I feel like if I can get my story out there, I can help to inspire others. But my first hurdle, to make my chest stop hurting from the weight of this stress, if to take a chunk out of this debt and get my life back.
I am a good person and I don’t take those words lightly, I just made a few really bad life choices along the way.
I need help.
Thank you for taking a few minutes to read my story.
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