Please help me to save myself

Hello guys, I'm Hiro, 18 years old. I don't have a job, and I lived with my grandmother. When the Taal Volcano erupted last year my life became so hard. My mother is an OFW and she can't give us an enough money because her salary is not that high because her working hours is not 8 hours + and if she quit her job we can't tell if she can find a job that has 8 hours + because finding a new one can be extremely difficult because of pandemic.

My tuition is unpaid since the start of school year. Since the Taal Volcano erupted our house is dangerous to live and we can't rent an apartment because we can't afford it and life has been so hard and I can't eat 3 meals a day because we don't have enough money and the food here in Philippines is so expensive. It is so difficult when I'm hungry. I always feel weak and sometimes I just want to kill myself to finish my suffering. Not being dramatic but it feels like hell when I'm hungry so that's why sometimes I think of it.

I know many people will say that I should get a job. But I'm only a student and my mother wouldn't let me work and she's scared because I might get infected of COVID when I go out.

I'm knocking at your hearts and the money that you all donate will be use for my needs like tuition, food, or savings in case of emergency. Not in any worthless things.

Your kindness is greatly appreciated.