Please Help Me With This One

Hi i humbly asking for help to anyone with a good heart,to be honest due to the age and education qualification here in the philippines i am having a hard time to find a job i have been applying for a job now for almost a year,but having a epilepsy and depression is tough and i did not even finish my highschool which now i am taking (ALS),when i was young back then i am a hard worker,i even help others when i have plenty,and time comes all my earnings has gone,all my life i had been selfless and this is my first time thinking of myself i really failed in my life and i really want to recover my life,and start again,what i was thinking is to do streaming video games and also taught myself an animation since this is my passion but since i don't have a proper equipment i can't start anything,i promise to myself when i get back on my feet,i will help other people also,its okay even prayers will do..please pray for me..thank you to all the people who had time reading this,god bless you and your family