Please Help Me to Pay Off My Debt

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This fundraiser is created to help myself in paying off a debt. First of all, my name is Janni (Isnaini Mubdiuna is my full name), and i am from Indonesia (my friend created this account to help me because some international fundraising site does not support Indonesian emails - i dont know why).

Long story short about me :
I have been struggling with my life, all alone. I have no family nor an occupation due to my niqab. I had been trying for 3 years to find a job but no company / no one hire me due to my niqaab & jilbaab. I had a job before in 2018 but the company never paid me for 3 months so i decided to resign without severance-pay at all. Since then, i tried to apply other jobs but i never get any calls or even emails for interview. Once or twice she got it, but they asked me to take off my niqaab and jilbaab which is impossible for me to do so. Things become more difficult to me since pandemic started. I was married once but it was only for 7 months until i found out that he already has a wife and a son (he manipulated and lied to both of us - me and his wife - and of course he cheated on his first wife), and then he left me and never gives me a living until now.
I was abandoned by my own family due to getting raped and pregnant in 2019. Left the house for several months. And when i tried to go back home, they physically abused me by burning my body & leg with iron, hit me with a stick, etc. And now my family is in prison. I dont have any siblings, except my adopted brother who passed away a few years ago. I cant finish my uni as well and dropped out. Because of those events, i have been struggling with mental illnesses and struggling to even provide myself for food, pay water/electricity bills, etc. I call myself as an orphan because even my family is in prison, they never want to see me. And whenever i tried to visit them, they still verbally abused me. All friends told me to stop visiting for my mental health's sake. I live all alone with nobody else except my cats.

I still cant get any jobs. But i literally just started to try to sell digital planners on Etsy and sell clothes on local e-commerce (Indonesian). I still dont earn enough to support my own living from those online shops (maybe because those are new small businesses i try to build). My profit is very small and i still dont get new orders every day.
On the other hand, i have debt arrears from my life insurance. It's for IDR 2.730.000 which is around £171. And as the document says, that is the amount of the arrears until June 2022 ; and £171 is the total arrears for 24 months (look at the yellow underlined sentence). And now it's already October
I never pay the monthly premium because im not able to afford the monthly premium, so i thought it would be deactivated automatically if i never pay, but i was wrong. So, my intention is to pay the debt arrears off and no longer using life insurance.

Note : why do i set the amount for £251? Because the site says that "needed amount must be greater than 250" — so by that, i will donate the rest of the money (£79) to the nursing home in my area as sadaqah.

Dear brothers & sisters, i dont know how else to pay it off. Im in difficulty to live my daily life already. And im afraid to die carrying unpaid debts. I humbly need your little support to help me on this matter.

Rasulullah ﷺ said, “Whoever relieves the hardship of a believer in this world, Allah will relieve his hardship on the Day of Resurrection. Whoever helps ease one in difficulty, Allah will make it easy for him in this world and the Hereafter.” (Sahih Muslim)

So guys, please donate even if it’s as little as £1. Your donation will be the greatest investment in akhirah. May Allah azza wa jalla reward you all abundantly and multiply your rizq'. May He grant you all success in dunya and akhirah. Aameen.

I humbly say thank you so much in advance and jazakumullah khayran.

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