PLEASE HELP ME THROUGH THE DARKEST DAYS OF MY LIFE

In July this year my 24yr old son who suffered Cerebral Palsy, had a seizure in the bath and drowned. He was all alone until I found him. It was the worst day of my life and I will never get over it. Since then I have had to move to a smaller house with my 11yr old son whom I bring up myself and get no maintenance for as his father doesn't want to pay. I had to borrow from relatives for a car so I could still get around as I have a sister with learning difficulties and take her to her various medical appointments. Life has been very stressful as we have only just buried my sons ashes due to lots of brain tests as part of his post mortem. I miss him so much and have been diagnosed with depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder as a result of finding him dead. I was on income support but have been told that as my son is dead and I am no longer his carer I must go on Job Seekers Allowance. My doctor has given me a sick note as he says I am in no fit state to work just yet although I am hoping to go to work early next year. My income has reduced by about £40 a week and I am struggling to pay the bills and feed/clothe my son. With Christmas coming up I am worried sick. I would not usually ask for help as I have always just got on with things but these last few months have been horrendous and I just don't know where to turn. Any help would be greatfully received.

Please help me to give my son a good Christmas as he misses his older brother so much. Im trying so hard to make things as normal as possible but my head is all over the place and any help would reduce my stress and possibly put a little smile back on this face.

Love and merry Christmas to you all.

GLYNIS xxx