Please help me recover and not depend on my abusive family

After years of battling lifelong abuse, loneliness, depression, suicide attempt, … my hard work paid off as I managed to sort myself out mentally, get a job and gain the confidence to escape from the toxic environment - I felt like I was finally given a chance to fly like a free bird, but it turned out to be a double-edged sword. I was sick at the time I got hired, and my illness progressed because of job and other commitments. For years, doctors didn't take my chronic issues seriously enough, so I had the wrong diagnosis and I didn’t know that I shouldn’t overdo things; eventually, everything left me being bedridden and completely dependent on others. While working, I was constantly helping other people who were in great need, and I donated them money, but I donated more than I could afford. Now - I am left with no savings and I need help from others, and I have lost all my former friends.

I got bedridden in October 2019. I was recovering fast, but I needed to contact my family for help, and ever since then, they have made it impossible for me to recover. Ever since, my condition has escalated to having 40+ symptoms, some of them which I had daily: overall body pain, debilitating fatigue, problems with limb functioning, kidney problems, heart problems, severe brain fog, anxiety, … With the help of an online community, I figured out some natural remedies that helped me become housebound and partially bedbound. Still, I need a lot of rest - to preserve this state and work towards getting better, again - which I am not getting because of the abuse.

My family, only caregivers, instead of helping me make my condition worse every day. I am exposed to severe neglect ( no water, food, air at times ) and abuse so I flare up and everything gets worse. When they were not at home I used to rest and recover, but my body is giving up, and I developed other issues because of stress. It is horrible!!! There are times when it feels like living in a real hell - it is unexplainably difficult.

I won’t recover enough to work again and have any life if I stay in this house. Several months of good rest somewhere else will make me better again, and I need therapy to help me with the trauma. I calculated I will need at least $3600 for food, utilities, rent and other necessities, and therapy. My extended family can’t help me and because of very rigid conditions I need for recovery and inability to walk for more than ~50 m, I can’t use Serbian services like Church kitchen or Safe houses. I am still hoping for a better future, but it is hard, and I am scared.

My name is Katarina, and I am a graphic designer. I deserve a better life. I deserve to be healthier, to work, be independent and feel the joy and love of life and I am willing to fight for it! I am asking you, guys, if you could help me win this. I have so much to deal with, and your help would mean a world to me! I am beyond thankful for any donation and sharing!

I want to make a phone wallpaper as a reward for every donation, so please include your email if you want to receive the reward. If you need my contact my email is [email protected]