Please help me raise a deposit for my home

Please help me raise a deposit for a place to stay. I promise I wouldn't be asking here if I didn't need the help.

“As people, we have forgotten to be people. We know how to be doctors, lawyers, nurses, teachers, we know what to do, we know what to buy, but how do I just sit with you in your pain? How do I sit with you in your vulnerability and not betray you, not abuse you? We do not know how to do that, even in our homes.”

As the quotes by Iyanla Vanzant states above and another quote states "Family is not always a safe haven. It is often the place where you find deepest heartache."

As I am writing this I can hear my own uncle gossiping about me to a neighbor who does not even know me. It hurts real bad. I've been slandered by all my family.

In 2019 I became unemployed and this led to me having to give up the place I was renting. Trust me I have been searching for a job since but to no avail. I had to move in with family and and this was the place where I grew up. After a few months my uncle asked me to leave and this was due to a cousin of mines wife who didn't want me there because she wanted her children to move in to the room. I've done everything for them from cleaning to cooking. I then left and moved in with my sister's (who has passed on) son. He later threatened me with a gun and said he doesn't want me there because he was busy with alcohol and drugs when entertaining his friends and neighbors would know of this when they stopped by to see how I'm doing. I then left back to my hometown again. A while back my sister in law offered for me to stay with them but I never took her up immediately on the offer and I said I would maybe later if I had no other option. When I left my nephew's place I asked my sister in law if it would be ok if I could just sleep over for a short time whilst I figure out where to go. This has now all happened in this time of covid. And she told me no, I must ask some of the other family members. Which I did all of them has come up with all sorts of excuses. It is not like I got myself sick, cause I take very good care of myself and make sure that I keep myself safe by following all the rules. This has ended up where I had to sleep at a b & b until I ran out of funds. Another family member also offered for me to stay at their house if things didn't work out for me but when the time came and I asked they also made excuses. I ended up getting on a bus to go to other family in a different province. Later I heard that the uncle who is also my father who legally adopted me has been phoning all of the rest and telling them that they shouldn't give me a place to stay. That I am an unpleasant person to live with. All kinds of stories that I use a lot of water, and I don't have a policy, so if I die who's going to bury me and all kinds of terrible rumours about me. To the point where the current family members I'm staying with now has asked me to leave as well. I've been paying them monthly with money a friend has been helping with who's overseas. But they would turn the water off so I don't have drinking water during the day or to do my washing with. At this point I am so exhausted I just need I place of my own where I can have peace. In a time where I need my family the most I have been shoved from one place to the other. Badmouthed by a person who was supposed to be my biggest support and the others choose to believe him. I'm not allowed to be in my room cause that is where I spend time praying and to keep away from the negativity.

If I could just be settled in a place of my own without any negative people around. I know I will be able to get a job.