I WANT TO SEE MY DAD AGAIN

hello, My name is Grace Harry and I'm 21years old! Im an artist, singer and i genuinely have a passion for the arts! I currently live here in Guyana for about 4 years now, I am originally from Saint Lucia and I spent 80% of my life in the USA. My parents got separated and my mom took me from my dad and we moved here to South America.I haven't seen my dad in over 9 years, i was just about to graduate from middle school when my mom took me from him! I was a scholar student back in middle school, I had huge plans for my life in New York and she took that from me because she said God told her in a dream to bring me back to saint Lucia. My life has gone down since I left, dealing with abuse by my mom both physical and verbal! She would constantly say that I won't achieve anything in my life, that I'm just like my dad, he never went to college and works as a construction Worker. I became violent towards myself and others and molded myself into that person she expected me to be! My moms mom died when she was 6 so she didn't have much of a role model to emulate what a real mother should be like, so I excuse her for her blunders but I could never forget the effect it makes on my life. I dropped out of school because I was emotionally unable to handle it! My mom took Mr from the USA knowing that my visa had expired without renewing it. She did everything to bring me down without realising it! She kicked me out of the house over 10 times saying that I'm no longer her responsibility after I turn 18. I'm tired and want a change for my life! Please help me get to apply for 12th grade in new York and then right into college and get to be with my dad again. Also i would really need to see a therapist, if you kniw of any good ones you may emailme at [email protected] thank u so much for your help!