Please help me get my body back

I have never done that before, so not sure where to start. I am also struggling with what I should and what I shouldn’t say as my matter is quite sensitive and confidential…

10 years ago I met amazing couple and we became friends. I was already a mum but my friends have been trying to conceive for years. I’ve seen them going from one IVF to another and their hopes being burned. They spent over significant amount on the treatments and tried everything. Their last chance was surrogate. I offered them my help and they accepted it. I had 2 embryos implanted hoping that 1 of them would take. They both did. We were all scared, pleased, excited, worried just a mix of emotions! I agreed to carry a baby for them. A baby! And suddenly I had 2. The pregnancy was at least challenging. Then one of the tests came back saying that there is 60% chance that one of the babies has fatal health condition. I wish I didn’t look online to see what it means! Our world almost collapsed. 60% is a lot, which one of them 2 had it? I was immediately sent to see best specialist in London and from then I was under the care of the best doctors ever. I was given few choices: terminate the whole pregnancy, do a needle test to both and see which baby is effected- but risk was that I will loose the whole pregnancy, carry on pregnancy as it is and give a birth to deformed foetus or two (as both could have been affected). If I would go for needle test and we would know which foetus is affected, then I would have an option of doctor injecting it and killing, and then I would give a birth to something deformed….

I decided to carry on with the pregnancy at it was without any tests at all. I just wouldn’t take a chance to risk this pregnancy, as I knew it is my friends last chance-That I was their last chance.

But I was worried. I was worried so worried about the children.

Last month I spent at the hospital with my dearest child visiting me every single day. It was almost her birthday and just wanted to be out and able to celebrate it with her. I prayed for both new lives that I was caring and for my family and myself.

I gave birth to 2 amazing children. Both were healthy, happy. My friends dream finally came true.

Now I want to do something for myself. It’s been 3 years since I gave a birth but I am struggling with the skin excess and my muscles split up (came away in my abdominal). I would like to raise money for a surgery. Unfortunately the cost is quite high- £10 000. I can’t also post my photos and give too many details as I want to protect privacy of my friends and my own. Not many people know what I did.

I came across this website and thought that I would give it a go. It is probably my only chance. The same as I was for my friends back then.

Thank you for reading and if you think that my dream is good enough case- please donate.