Hello My name is Andrew and I have been battling TMJD for almost 3 years now. It is getting worse and worse everyday to the point I can barely chew anymore what's worse is that I developed tinnitus cause of it and I can't take this anymore. I have been to doctors and the second I took my mask off I was told my jaw is out of place and they sent to get treatment. I have been undergoing treatment but we simply don't have enough money for it.
The tinnitus I developed cause of this it's so loud that I can barely sleep or focus on anything. I got scared when it first showed up and my family took me to do audiographs, MRI and even get my blood vessels checked but it looks like it is caused by my joints being dislocated.
I am so sorry if I can't express myself with words as good as I wish I could. I just want to get my normal life back this tmj is giving me severe jaw pain to the point I can barely open my mouth sometimes let alone chew, what's worse is the tinnitus that is ruining me everyday making every day of my life feel like a nightmare I never thought I'd end up in. The pain was one thing but I can't enjoy silence or focus on anything because of it I just wish for a hope to return back to normal, I tried to be strong and keep it to myself but the more time went on the worse it got to the point I just can't take it anymore without help.
I never thought I would end up in such situation I never tried to be mean to anyone and I always wondered why me, what have I done wrong to deserve this but I hope that I can get through the treatment so I have a change at recovering myself back. If anyone can help me I will be forever grateful and again I am very sorry if I can't express my emotions properly with words. And if you do help me I want to thank from the bottom of my heart.
This condition is eating at me everyday and I just can't sit and say I can take it anymore because I can't.
when I was 16 I one day felt my jaw pop out loud and then stuck in place without being able to move it back into place. I managed to pop it back but then my jaw became very painful.
I stopped doing that but pain in my jaw kept appearing till it didn't anymore but my jaw always clicked when I opened it and sudden pain would reappear and my jaw would feel uncomfortable. My mom took me to a (ENT) doctor. The second I take off my mask she told me that my jaw is out of place.
She then made me open my mouth wide with her fingers on my jaw and it popped so loud and hurt so much she sent me to a a orthodontist saying that my jaw had shifted out of place.
I went to 2 orthodontists and they both told me the same thing. They told me my jaw was damaged and shifted and that it was so bad that a malocclusion on my left side occurred where my molars don't even touch when I close my mouth or try as hard as I could. They told me I had developed severe(TMJD).
(A condition in which the jaw joints are out of place)
I couldn't believe it but I went on moving forward. My family and friends have legitimately pointed out that something was wrong with my jaw. I went on from living a normal life and able to move on to being called weird looking, mocked and seen differently all of the sudden because of the damage and how my jaw took shape and I honestly never wish to relive those moments.
I decided to be strong and move on forwards with it and try to forget about all of it in the past. My self esteem was below the floor and I felt like I'd been abandoned. I was afraid to go out with my friends or get out the house for a long time because of what had happened to me. But I decided to be man and move on forward. Leave all behind and cope with it and try to be strong even though pain in my jaw would reappear often.
I moved on forward up until now that I can't anymore the pain was one thing but one day my left ear started buzzing but I ignored it thinking it's a fly. It started chasing me everyday until I covered my ears and realized the sound was coming from inside. I went back to the ENT doctor which cleared my ears and said there was nothing in it. When I told her it's still buzzing she looked surprised saying there was no reason for it to be.
The more time went on the louder it got preventing me from focusing on anything and sleeping.
I then went to do 2 audiograms and spent a lot of money for MRI and even Blood Vessels scanned for nothing to show up but to be told I suffer from Tinnitus. Looking it up tinnitus can also be cause by TMJD and I knew it was bad.
I an sitting here with tears in my eyes as the sound is getting louder and louder and migrating to my other ear as well preventing me from sleeping. I never thought that I would get this unlucky in life at such a young age.
Because of this constant loud tinnitus I can't enjoy peace, silence, I can't mediate. I can't focus on anything it is always there distracting. I can't sleep at all even when with white noise it is getting louder and louder up to the point I'm breaking down. It is ruining my life and I feel myself going insane because of it. I don't want to go insane or give up on my life because of this. I could deal with the pain sometimes but this is just too much for me to handle without going insane and I'm afraid to say it.
I do not know what to do anymore I have been to so many places and done so many scans, the only thing remaining is the orthodontic treatment to put my jaw back in place but being just 19 I barely have money for that let alone my family.
And even if I manage to fix my tmjd what if the tinnitus doesn't go away. What if it's permanent. I tried to move away from it and cope with the pain but everytime I try to forget about it this loud buzzing follows me to remind me everywhere. I just want to live my life and be able to do things the normal way.
Even now sitting here with this noise getting louder and louder I can't believe what a bad turn my life has taken. I have always wondered if it's because I have wronged somebody and I'd always feel sorry for that. I never wished to hurt anyone and tried to be nice to people so I always wondered why did this have to happen to me.
I don't know where else to go I though many times of giving up on my life because of this but I don't want to admit that honestly because I feel like people will think I'm attention begging if I say that.
I don't know what to do anymore and where else to go. I'm sorry if I made you read through all of this or and wasted your time. But I want to thank you at least for reading this far and I please ask of you to help me pay for the treatment. And thank you a lot if you read this far even if I won't get enough for the treatment I still feel better I got to let someone know what I'm going through.