Please-help to fight my breast cancer .I want to live

Hello, my name is Liliana Sirbu.It is hard to me,to write my story because my eyes are full of tears.But I'll try:

I am 51 years old -retiree,I live in Chisinau-it's the capital of Moldova. This happened to me at September 13,2019 at Friday, two days before my birthday,I recieved answer from oncologist ,based on cytological analysis- You have regional metastatic breast cancer stage 2B.

I fell into big depression.I started to scroll in my head whom I had done badly in my life, because I had been helping all people all my life.And never asked some help for me..... I asked the God, why? What I've done ? The first day it seemed to me that the whole world was up against me. It really was a shock for me, my hard and poor life just began to improve, after a stroke in 2011. I just got the opportunity to free myself from this legalised slavery in my homeland .But ,cancer happens ...

My near future plan included to relocate to a friendlier and lovely place, giving birth to a child, and giving him all my love. But my dreams and plans crashed in one moment. Now,bad thoughts come to my mind that I will cut off my cancer breast with my own hand from despair. I am desperate for my condition, I never thought that this would happen to me.I am ashamed to ask strangers for help.My pension is very small -150 euros per month, minus the cost of food, housing, I always stay in the red. Now I have no savings, no property, nothing ... except faith and desire to live, faith in God and you - the faith in good people.I am ready to accept the battle!

Please help me,I believe in you, I believe in myself. I want to LIVE! I want to LOVE!

Many thanks to all those who read and imbued, I am grateful for your help, attention and prayers.God bless you , your family, your friends!