Personal lifelong depression

Hi , My name is Vanhaeren Jurgen I'm 32 years old and I live in Belgium. This is very difficult an emberrasing for me what I'm gonna tell you and ask you. I know you will get lots of letters from people like me with this question but I hope you will read my story that I'm gonna tell you. Whole my life I am in a depression, wen I got to school I was bullyd every day and wen I came home it was even worse because there was every day a fight because my dad was drunk. When my school was done I was happy because I thought I'm gonna work an this are gonne be adults so no bullies anymore, but I couldnt be more wrong. Every day was a hell.

I never told anywone about this till I was 26. So no one knew about this. Than I went to a psychiator and a psychologist. So I am going to them for 6 years now. I'm also going to a osteopath because of my stress and my weak bones because almost every day I'm in bed.

I also take 21 pills every day. Now comes the most shamefull thing for me, because I go to all these doktors it cost a lot of money and also these pills cost a lot of money and it's getting to much for me at this moment. So I wanna ask you if you maybe can help me with this, it doesnt have to be much, every little thing is welcome and if you dont want to help I totally wont blame you. So watever you will do I will thank you that you took your time to read my story.

So thank you very much for reading this.

Greetings, Jurgen