Fund to become a creator as i can not get a job

Hello to whoever see's this. Over the past year i have been constantly looking and applying for jobs. literally every day. As you can tell it has not been going very well. i have decided to see if anyone in the world can help me. i know its inhumane to even ask for money online, but im also asking for advice, if you can help me in any way shape or form, then this has been a success. i have no options left. as you can tell by the title, my aim in life is to become a content creator. I want to become a 3d modeller, a twitch streamer and also a youtuber. i am undergoing online tutorials on 3d modelling (not the best idea i know) and plan to watch hundreds of hours of different tutorials to perfect what i have learned. i also like to play games witch is where the twitch streamer comes in. since i know quite a bit about gaming, computers and audio, this would just be a natural thing to do for me. it would be something that i would do in my spare time. the content creation side is where it where it would be difficult. more of a learn as you go and learn from your mistakes type of thing. as a starter i will be making highlight videos on gaming, funny videos/Memes and also do a couple of episodes where i go and learn something new from different cultures to just simply learning a new skills(this would be more in the future).

at the time you read this i will already be trying to make a start. from doing the tutorials for 3d modelling (witch are already underway), to starting to create content on youtube. i feel as though the streaming side can not happen at the moment, as i need to invest my time into learning and progressing on the other two before i can even start thinking about chilling and playing video games. i have alot of time to invest into this and i am determined to make my dream work.

im really in a bad situation at the moment and im afraid of it effecting my mental health and actual health, the fact i cannot even get a simple warehouse job screams i need to something asap. this i why ive made this.

if anyone can help me it would be amazing. from donating anything you can to help me simply pay bills. to eventually helping me get a good pc to deal with everything i want to do in future. not only am i asking for help with money but im also asking for anyone to help me knowledge wise. giving me advice on certain things, to even coaching me on how to do anything witch involves what i want to do.

i will be making a twitter for people to get in contact with me, ask me questions and also keep track of whoever helps me for future reference when time become better.

at the time of writing this i feel really low. the fact that im asking for help is really soul destroying for me. i know there are people all over the internet asking for money and what not. but this isnt just that. im not here to just take your money and be done with it. im here to better myself with a helping hand. any type of help i receive i will be returning the favour in the distant future. And i really mean that. the fact that someone will help someone else at their time is really a something that you can not put into words.

so to anyone that helps me in any way shape or form throughout my journey. i want to say in advance, THANK YOU! From the bottom of my heart i thank you. you literally have no idea how anything you do for me means to me. this will not be the only time i thank you if you help me out, believe me. this thank you is more for the people who made it this far and feel empathy towards me and cannot help me. most people would of stopped reading at the words of help me or money. but not you, you listened to what i have to say and i appreciate that. no matter the outcome of this thank you for being here and listening to my situation.

on that note im going to continue my tutorials and try to help myself.

thank you again for reading this and i wish you all the best in the coming future.

my twitter is @HelpJourney.