School is very espenive these days, especialy for the lower poverty people that can barely stay afloat! I dream of going to colege and bettering my self and reaching my goals but i'm tired of just dreaming! my dreams and goals, even though realistick they seem so far from my reach! Please help me pursue and secure a better future for my self and my loved ones!
A bit more in depth about me and my life!
I have been through a very hard life, more than most! I lived with an abusive step father for years, he tryed to kill us every day! Me and my family have been shot at many times (shot in back of head with co2 and hand pump- air rifle pellet gun-thats strong enough to kill a bull), knives held to me and my fams throats and such, cut several times on other places of my body but never deep enough to raise alarms and get him taken down. theres alot more to all of that but I realy dont want to reminecse about it at this time. Eventualy I was taking away from my mom after we escaped him, because I was a troubled child and state didnt think I was in a good envirment for me, I was bounced from goruop homes and foster care till i was 16, than my adult life started and it wasnt much better! So many deaths of loved ones and bad relationships that left me heart broken! About 3 years ago I finaly mett the love of my life, things where so perfect with us and her 2 kids (I loved her so, and loved her kids as my own) but eventualy she slowly but than rappidly changed, one min she was all loving, next min she hated me and was so mean and cold! I loved her to much though so i stuck out the torture than came her notceable failing health, she would go into seisours out of nowhere, it went on in on, doc after doc till finaly we found a doc that done his job, but it was now to late! She died from cancer a bit after we found it first in her brain (thats why she was nice than mean) but it spread and she was taking from me!And with her dead, the bio-dads got custudy of the kids and they say the kids don't need another father so I never get to see or talk to them, havent since their mom died even though I raised them as my own for 4 years! Laste year I mett another girl I fell for her charm and was a full to Marry her lol, she and her ex (they never broke up) stold all I owned including my dead fiances stuff she left me to give to her kids when they are old enough to see me without permission! Now I'm divorced and worse off than I've been in years and I just need help picking up the pieces and moving forward in my life!