I honestly don't know how to address this matter without feeling ashamed and helpless, but I chose to try yet again. I'm sorry. Some of you might've remembered me posting about my father's health condition, on how he has been diagnosed with Stage 2 Colorectal Cancer late April of this year, the progress he's making. My family and I were beyond grateful to have met the funds that we have set for him last August. It has tremendously better our situation since we were able to afford my father's medicine and seek a competent hospital service to improve his health.
And all of us thought that every thing has been going well until after another endoscopic examination, with results stating that instead of two malignant tumours previously found in his large intestines, there are now about five. And though he has gained weight for the past week (8lbs), he continously feel abdominal discomfort which got him twisting and turning almost 24/7 in his bed. My mother also recently found out that he has been hiding that he is still experiencing rectal bleeding (probably just so we would not worry much about him, except we do).
We are still conditioning his body for the surgical debulking, although we were being advised to consider getting him permanent stoma.
I know that I should know better than to rely on strangers' generosity, but I have truly exhausted every resource I know of just so I could provide for my father and my family. I've been working two separate jobs to make ends meet (as a bookkeeper and as an online tutor) but after going in and out of the hospital to check my father's condition, and although I have been (extra) careful in following preventive/strict measures as to not contract Covid, I unfortunately tested positive recently. I have been self-isolating for about 5 days now after losing my sense of smell and taste ( kind of self-diagnose, at first) and after having myself checked/confirming my suspicion. And although I was promised to get financial assistance from my current job, I don't think it'll be enough help for us since my department abides by the "no work, no pay" policy.
It truly pains me feeling this incapable when I am needed the most. Some of you are probably experiencing worse than me, and instead of offering you help, it is I who is asking you of it. I just feel like apologizing for reaching out, but I don't know what else to do anymore or where else I could ask for help to get by. Truth be told, I am already at my wits' end, and as pathetic as this sounds, I am now hoping that there'll be someone, anyone of you, to bless us with kindness. Anything will do, and will help right now. Again, I'm sorry. Thank you.