Panic Disordered now HOMELESS

Help for myself!

31 male from Finland been suffering from bad panic attacks including anxiety which drives me insane with social fear since 2007 when I was diagnosed and I had to quit my job. Since that it's been cycle of fear with reckless lifestyle. Only living with day by day plan.

Ended up:

In my sister's apartment. In 6 square meter room. Without incomes. Status: Unable to work and struggling to survive from daily bases. Nearly with 20000€ in debt and still payment plans going on.

See no solution or way out of this mess without financial settlement.

I don't own anything, no car, no house, nothing, no girlfriend anymore etc... Only music gear that has saved my life, keeping me calm during the day.

I DON*T DRINK, SMOKE OR DO OTHER DRUGS ANYMORE. ONLY USING MEDICATION THAT I NEED TO SURVIVE. TRYING TO WORKOUT DAILY IN GYM, NOW 2 YEARS ACTIVE PLUS WALKING IN NATURE.

MEDICAL CARE: STARTING TO RUN DOWN MY MEDICATION THAT I NEED TO SURIVE. BECAUSE I*M GROWN AS MAN.

THERAPY: DOESN*T SEEM TO WORK FOR ME AT THE MOMENT. DON*T SEE SO MUCH HELP WITH THIS UNSTABLE FUTURE PLAN.

STARTED TO PANIC IS THIS THE WAY GROWN MAN SHOULD LIVE? WAS THIS MY DESTINY? WILL I END UP ON THE STREET AS FULL BLOWN JUNKY?