I live in one of the 5 borough in New York City, Brooklyn. I came here as a missionary to learn and see things that I have take for granted. The peace I experience back home, the safe and comfortable place I have.
But coming here, I am faced with children who are abused by their parents who are on drugs, children who gets abandoned because it gets too expensive to raise a kid here, my teenagers getting raped, and gunshots every now and then. My kids here do not know if they will live to see tomorrow. Every weekly visit at their homes are so precious to me. The urgency that I faced to meet the needs of this kids.
Walking in this place is one filled with tears, self hatred, and being not good enough, yet at the same time, just a single smile from them, could have changed my life. When you learn to see beyond your own needs, and meet the needs of others.
Here, it’s when I have to say goodbye to my fear and insecurities, and believed that I was chosen for a time such as this. Here, it’s where I have to remove the words,” I’ve survived”, because the struggles I go through, hard as it may seems, could not be compared to the ones I have seen. The city where they don’t know when their next shower would be, when will be the last time they smile. And it’s in this place where I realized that this children had a scarier childhood than I’ve had.
Break my heart for what break Yours, became one of the scariest prayer that one could pray. There’s too many things that break my heart in this city. And in seeing the desperate needs of this kid, my heart was compelled. Every single tear they cried, became so precious to God and to me. They did nothing wrong to deserve to be where they are. And if I have so much, why can’t I give it to those who have so little. Each day, I learnt to see each one I meet as someone made from the image of God and in His likeness.
And so I am, trying to raise funds so I could send this kids to camp, buy things for them, and bring some joy to their lives and sustain my ministry. The organisation that I work with reaches out to 20,000++ kids per week. And we personally have a visit with all the kids.
It's USD200 = SGD 300 for each kid to go for summer camp.