“Once was lost, but now is Found”
I was raised in a Chinese family and grew up with unforgiveness towards my father. I was never good enough for him. But that did not stop me from getting good education – I was able to graduate with a college degree and was able to work overseas for several years. I lived life the way I wanted it to be. I had a lot of friends, my work, I was living a life where I was the God of myself. The rebellion took over my life in the form of alcohol, drugs and sex addiction and practice homosexual activities. My pride kept me going but deep inside was a growing bitter and hatred in the family. I know that they tried to help me overcome with my drug addiction, but it was already too much for them to handle. Until our house caught on fire, and that’s when I was asked to gracefully exit and not transfer with them to the new house.
2017 was the toughest year. I experienced wandering around the streets of Cubao, not knowing where my feet will take me – begging for food from strangers, sleeping at the sidewalk, trying to keep my sanity intact. How can someone cope from having and losing everything including family? The only way I know to survive that time was to have sex while selling drugs. It went on until I notice that my health deteriorates (weight loss, skin rashes, cough and flu) that I needed to myself check to the hospital. That’s where I found out that I was diagnosed with HIV since October 2016 but I never went through proper counseling and referral. I was admitted in San Lazaro Hospital for Pneumonia and TB – my cd4 count was already 58. Due to late treatment, my left eye is now completely blind due to CMV retinitis.
It was a blessing in disguise when someone shared the gospel to me. I don’t have anything to lose if I believe, so I have accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. Indeed, there is redemption, forgiveness and restoration as I continue my walk with the Lord. He did not promise us with a storm free life, but a storm proof one.
I am passionate in providing HIV awareness and sharing my testimony to different churches, schools, jails and hospitals to give encouragement that there is HOPE and that JESUS HEALS.
Leaving everyone with this verse: “I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ live in me. “ Galatians 2:20
I know that the Lord will use people in extending assistance - it will help me continuously taking medicines and vitamins as my immune system count (cd4 count) is 52 only as of December 2020. [cd4 count of non-hiv person is 1000]. It will also help me continuously paying my rent and buying healthy foods as well as other personal toiletries. With low immune system count, there is higher risk of me being exposed to COVID. Thus, I had to stop working while recuperating.
To God be all the glory!