I spent years trying to “get it right.” After being told what to do by family and then my husband, I’ve learned I have to do it another way. I’m in the process of waiting to hear from vocational rehab services, Indepedent living skills cordinators (I married young, and while I ran the household want to make sure I have all my bases covered, and have applied for a grant with a charity called “Clarity Cares” for a full psychiatric diagnosis which will help me get an official diagnosis for Aspergers. I’m educated, so the term “you’re too smart for this” has been thrown at me a lot. However, I don’t pick up on social cues. This is more than just awkwardness. I constantly would ask my partner if something sounded right. I called the domestic Abuse hotline to see if what I was going through was “normal.” They said it was not. I was in a domestic abuse situation. Being a stay at home mom for the last 3 1/2 years to an autistic son left me without income. I left my husband when he said he would kill me. He says it’s no big deal, and even though he makes 24, almost $25 an hour, won’t help me with anything. In any case, I need to get my storage unit paid, my car fixed, car insurance paid, rent, gas money, phone (it’s prepay, nothing fancy), and health care. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, ADHD, and general anxiety (hence the reason I’ve reached out to vocational rehab to help me find employment). I’m trying to do this right and I know it’s going to take several months for all this to get going. So, as soon as I can, I’ll be posting the scientific aspect of what has been going on. In the meantime, I have deadlines to get my things moved and bills paid. I know better than to think this will all solve itself shortly.