Nick’s Anxiety & Panic Attacks Mental Health (Anti-Fun)

Hi, my name is Nick and this is a last ditch effort for help to live. I suffer from extreme dibilitating anxiety and panic attacks. I have been suffering from this for over 10 years. After having to drop out of college and losing all my dreams of being a Chiropractor which was a life goal, I am now mostly stuck inside my own home, which is my safe zone. I spent the last 3 years trying to get help financially in the form of SSI disability but was turned down at my hearing with my administrative law judges. Unfortunately, most judges are not doctors and mental health goes unnoticed and mostly not understood by most. It is not a disability that is noticed on the outside of your body and is not as well known as say for example cancer, and/or MS. I would love to be able to work, but I am imprisoned within my own anxiety not allowing me to do barely anything that a normal 31 year old should be able to do. My parents have helped financially with everything that they can but my father himself has lost his job in the past year and my mother is close to losing hers. I have to start all over now applying for disability and it will take almost 3 years before I find out if I can get help. By then I most likely will have to become homeless, and or taken in somewhere. Just the thought of having to leave my home causes semi-daily panic attacks. Anyone who deals with this as well, I personally pray for you everyday. I would trade this ailment for almost any physical disability I could in a heartbeat. I have tried every non invasive thing possible to help, and now have to rely on very expensive name brand medication just so that I can have days where I can shower, cook myself a meal, and play with my dog. Dealing with these problems have humbled me as a human being and now I live for the small things, feeling the sunshine on my face, the ability to try and do small household chores and keep up on normal hygiene occurances. I thought I would give this a try in hopes that maybe someone out there may know what I am going through and may be able to help until I can get another hearing with a judge in hopes for some financial help. If anything, I would just appreciate a prayer if thats all that you can offer. Thank you, and god bless, and never take your normal things you can do everyday for granted, appreciate life every second for what it is worth. Thanks for reading. I appreciate it!