I am writting this email for to ask for to have a chance for to can change my life and make my dream comes true..
Not easy to write down all what in my mind,and not easy for to explain in what situation I am now..Also not easy for to make people to believe in what I am saying.. But I must try this way.
.Never asked help from no one in this way.. Some month ago I am visited one Arabic country and unbelievable what I got from there,what my heart started to feel.. My heart started to feel so calm..Started to feel that I am at home,My heart found her wordly homeland..Never feel such a peacfull feeling,never.. My eyes opened and I am started to read Quran,Started to pray my Salaah prayers,Bought my first Abaya.This is all so meaningful things for me,for my heart.That is not a right word for "converted to Islam" ,because I trully believe that all of us born as a muslim The Prophet Muhammad said,
"No babe is born but upon Fitra (as a Muslim). It is his parents who make him a Jew or a Christian or a Polytheist." (Sahih Muslim, Book 033, Number 6426)
So Better to say I came back to my Birth religion,In the land of my heart..I am after my first Ramadan,praying my 5 Salaah prayer per day,read full Quran two times till now.. Still have so many things to learn,but this is my religion,this is my faith,this is my future,I believe,my heart know it.. This is an unexplainable feeling and I just can not write out how my heart feel.. For sorry needed to travel back to my birth country,that is in Europe..Here the wordly life not easy ,same like in so many countries all over the world. I am wearing my Hijab from that time when I bought it and people not too much like it..Each and every day I am getting some "strange words" from people.. I lost my job, because I was going to my job wearing my Hijab..Some weeks ago I lost a flat what I was renting..My family not accepting what I chosen,so they not helping me with anything.. Some days I was sleeping in the airport and now I am asked help from one of my friend ,she said that I can stay in in their house till they not coming back from the holiday..I am trying my best for to find a work,but till now for sorry nothing.. I am going to the job interview and each and every time they even not asking anything about,just looking at me and saying sorry "someone else take this job earlier".. My friend will come back tomorrow and I dont know after that where to go and what to do..I have no money,nothing with me,can not ask from no one who near to me,I am tried everything.. After All This I am happy,because I found my way ,I know and see the truth and I believe that Allah here by my side and somehow will open a door for me,because
"Allah not make a lock without a key"..
I know that the prayer the most powerful thing what I have now..
What I am asking for ..for help for to can make my dream..for to can start a new life with muslims around me ..for to have a chance to can weak up each and every day for to hear a call for Farj salah prayer.. So sad for me to ask for a help in such a way and I am really really sorry for if this disturbing anyone..
I just want to say May Allah bless all of you will heathy and with long wordly life..
May Allah give peace for all of us in this wordly life..