New Life Needed – Can You Help?

I don't know where to start this really and it's all such a whiny pain in the ass story that I dont want to bore you to death before you've even started lol.

For the last 19 years I have been helping to care for or straight out care for family members and now at 35 I am tired and close to being broken to the point of no return.

Started helping my Mum with my Nan in my mid-teens. After the death of my Brother and Nan my Mum got ill with Cancer which I helped when her carers didnt turn up. When she died I then, reluctantly, started caring for my Father who was disabled and without my Mum was slowly killing himself with alcohol. During this time I was also caring for my Sister's three kids and trying to work part time and all while the government wouldn't acknowledge me as my Father's carer. My sister disappeared with the kids and my Father almost died of Cirrhosis of the Liver but bounced back. He was put into a home for full time care as I was on the verge of a mental breakdown after 7 years of caring for him 24/7.

NOW, he's doing much better and we get on famously now (this didnt start to happen until I was made to look after him because no one else would help) and is now waiting for the council to rehome him to his own place. He's tee-total and even doesnt smoke anymore and I'm very, very proud of him. But in the two years we have been waiting for him to get rehomed I have become homeless and spent the last 18 months sofa/floor/spare bed-hopping and just recently lost a job I absolutely LOVED with Forbidden Planet (I love my sci-fi and geeky stuff) due to needing time off for family and legal reasons (on a 0-hour contract you have no REAL rights).  Now I'm back to square one of no job and no home.

Since I was 14 I wanted to move to Italy where my Mum is from. We have family out there and rent is ridiculously cheap (250 a month! to the £150 minimum here A WEEK in London) I have friends there and soon hopefully a little bit of cash to get this journey started but sadly the money I have only covers about 70% of everything that needs to be paid off and I need just a little more help.

When I get over there I plan to write and work in a friends bar until my Italian picks up enough that I can look for something more. Teaching English can get you a lovely wage once you build up a client base so that might not take off until much later.

But until then I need your help, can you part with just a small amount of your hard earned cash for some sort of reward in return?  Would you be willing to part with the price of a packet of cigarettes or a pint down the pub or more? Any and everything is greatly appreciated.