Dear Angel in disguise,
I am at one of the lowest points of my already ‘its been so miserable’ life. As I am asking for a helping hand, its only fair that I snapshot you my life and how I got here. Without borings you with all the details, growing up was nothing but painful, I grew up in a fairly large family and I was the least favourite because I got in to the most trouble. My father was an alcoholic and mum was always working. I was abused in more ways than one by various family members. Once I was all grown up, I put the past behind me and I tried desperately to have what constitutes as a normal life. I had a fairly decent job and was slowly progressing in my field of work. Then the unfortunate happened any my father sadly passed away. It happened very quickly and it was such a shock. It took years to be able to live a normal life after. I then met a guy and fell in love, we loved each other so much and I finally felt some form of real happiness. We grew so close so quickly and we even decided to get married. Unfortunately that did not happen, he also passed away leaving me behind with a broken heart and all alone. I no later was laid off work due to cut backs and I can’t seem to find any job let alone one I want to do. I apply everyday and I can’t understand what I am doing wrong. Since then, I’ve had to move back to my mums house and my relationship with her is very sour to say the least. It has caused me much distress and I’m sad all the time. Then it suddenly hit me, I ‘m not progressing because not matter what I do, my past always hinders at me. I go through various motions all the time and then often repeat the cycle. I have pushed people away from me, gone on drink binges, a couple of suicide attempts and even ran away from it all at one stage. I don’t want to be that person anymore. I don’t want to hurt myself anymore. I want to be different and more to the point I want to be happy. However, I’m finding it so difficult to move on. At the age of 34 I feel like I’m old and passed it, but some around me still say I have my whole life ahead of me. I’m still not working and I almost feel like I am unemployable. I really wish I had planned my life better so that I could have had some form of financial cushioning for times like now. However the sad fact is that I am in a position where I am posting this post on a site that I don’t even know if is genuine. I am looking for around £10,000 in help. I really want to learn a new skill / trade so that I can work again. I would also like to pay some people back, one friend in particular, she gave me almost £2,000 and now she needs it back, I sold some of my stuff to give her some of the money back but I don’t have anything left to sell anymore L. I would also like to use some of the money to move out of my mums house and start living again like a normal person.
I assure you that I am drug free, I do occasionally like a drink though but I’m sure most of us are guilty of that pleasure. I am a law abiding citizen and always go out of my way to help others. I even give blood twice a year and I am signed up to the donor card scheme. I also help with a local charity who help cats – I am an animal lover. I am a fairly decent person, I just haven’t had much luck in life so far.
I could really do with a break to be honest, I’m one of those people that had to work 10 times harder to get very little back. If you can afford to help me please do. I realise that £10,000 is a hell of a lot of money to ask for, so any help would be appreciated, I may get to the magic number if a few kind hearted donations are sent through. Help to change my life :)
Even if you can’t help me by money, please perhaps bear me in mind the next time you have your personal conference with your god.
Thank you for reading x