I'm now in Hospice care. My heart is now less than a 9% EF fraction, my lower right chamber shot. I've had 6 Heart attacks, and stents, a triple bypass, a stroke, and heart failure 8 times since last August, in and out of the hospital each time. I have 7 slipped and herniated disks, 8 pinched nerves, have broken both ankles, torn both ACL's and Achilles tendons, Type III kidney failure, and type II diabetes. Life is short enough when you have your health. When your health is failing, and you need help just to enjoy your last, you pray someone's there. The harder it is to keep up, though, it becomes depressing at a time when you wish to do more, to feel you can complete some things, and end some things well. I Pray for this. The time God's granted me. The last year has been the hardest. You worry, and fear, not knowing what may be. Not like you normally would, to a point where you feel a wall is before you at a time you can't deal with it. Yet you try an continue, you think of good friends, times you'll never have again, and things you wish to do that are important. And you hope those who remember you, always will hold Love in their hearts for you. In my situation, it's strange knowing where I stand. I thought I'd live into my 80's growing up, and I thought life would be so different. It was beautiful until I became ill, and like all, I made mistakes along the way, I worked extremely hard for 33 years before illness pushed me out of the life I was building. I did a lot of good also, and helped many when I could. Time draws upon us all in this world, how, and why things happen you can never explain entirely. I take most things with a grain of salt, speak my mind, and plug along as best I can. I'm at a point where it's not enough as things creep up faster. I want some help to end things right when the time comes. I need some Freedom, and more time with my kids before hand to do some nice things before I'm gone. . Any and all help would be greatly appreciated.