Need Help

I m a single mother of 3 childrens, divorced been 10 years but ex husband didn't pay me a single cents since day 1, i have suffered and only my own salary brought up my kids. Due to too much of commitment, i cant afford anymore on the financial. Being pay for my ex husband credit card debts, i totally lost support on my cash flow, saving, gold chain, all been used up, now even loan around with friends. I am so sad that i cant give my kids a happy holiday every time school holiday or public holiday, due to no extra money can afford to bring them around. i am sad and disappointed of myself of being their mother. i did think of leaving this world so that wont have any more prob. i m down n all negative thinking keep in my head.

i am 42 years old, and my kids are between 18,15,12 years old

For anyone goodwill, could you pls donate little for me at Maybank Malaysia Account- MBB 154062622422 - Yong Wey Chua