Need a work truck to support my family

I am a long haul truck driver, I've found this job to be hard on supporting my family we've been struggling trying to keep up on Bill's and the nessestacy of trying to raze children and coming up short. Most of the time. I drove company and lease trucks it dosen't matter the only one making money is the company. I want to buy and own my truck this way I can broker my loads.this is the only way to be profitable in this business.those that do are doing vary well and keeping up on there bills and spending home time with there families. There are a lot of holidays I misted because of over due Bill's. I just want to provide for my family and spend more time with my family, I can't raze the money I need to purchase a truck god knows I tried. Please help me if you can.

Thankfully grateful