My much needed move

Hi I'm Emma I'm 36 a wife and a mother to 4 daughters, ive been suffering with different mental health problems for aslong as I can remember depression, OCD and have recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, I'm stuck in a rut and never truly feel happy or able to be the perfect mother and wife I should be, I would love a fresh start and the only place I ever feel happy is in prestatyn wales we've had holidays there nearly every year and its the only time I feel at peace and relaxed and like Im home and have been wanting to move for the longest time were not the most well off people we have a roof over our heads, food etc but never have money to save, my therapist recommended fundraising I never thought you could actually fundraise for yourself but after googling it I came across this site and thought I would give it a go, please help if you can I would be very grateful thank you