My Life

Hey thank you for taking time to read this. I don't know where start. Well so you know a bit about me I am 27 now. I'm from England. I have a daughter who's nearly 9! Her mother died when she was 4. She was my first ever girlfriend. The girl I lost my virginity to. I met her when I was 16. We were together about 6 years. I watched her die in mcmillains hospital throwing up feaces. I took a overdose after that, started smoking, doing drugs, drinking. Anything to block the pain. As she was my new start as I've always had a bad life before that. My mum was raped when she was younger. And my dad was a pervert. Once I was on the stairs and found a cigerette I tried to smoke it when my dad saw me and instead of telling me of he said come watch this with me it was porn. I stopped going school at 15. I stopped going anywhere. I locked myself in my room. My mum would leave food outside the door. The house was always in shocking state and food was sparse. So I barricaded myself away and eventually became scared of the outside world. I hid behind wardrobes and under beds. I had now for a year fixated on all my flaws. Having a year alone will do that to you. So I was scared of showing my self. I'd run downstairs for food and run back in my room. Only friends I had were my comics. Every picture was a whole world to me. Anyway I eventually got taken into a kids hospital and they helped me but I still struggle at times. So right now me any my daughter are all we have but I need help I'm so low on money I can't afford bills or food. So if you can find it in your heart spare me some change I will be grateful with all my heart. I have so many stories if you wanna hear more or wanna help me my kik username is RomeoSalvatore. My PayPal email is [email protected]