My Deformity

I am 22 years old and just recently found out what has been wrong with me all these years. This is my first time sharing my story. Not even my own friends or family know. At the age of 12, my parents got divorced and I chose to live with my beloved father. Unfortunatly I did not get to see my mother as often as I should have. Therefore, turning from a kid into a woman I had to do on my own. No one taught me how to shave my legs, details about puberty, etc. To this day I don't know what went wrong. I consider myself to be a good looking female and I have always recieved male attention. But outside looks mean nothing to me. I always knew there was something wrong with my breasts but always hoped that it would correct itself as I got older. It took me until the age of 22 to sit down behind a computer and do tons of research before learning I had tuberous breast syndrome. Which I learned is when the tissue of the lower part of your breast never develops while the rest does. They say its caused by something during the time that you go through pubery but I cant think of what I did to mess my body up from developing right. The effect this has on my life is tremendous. I can't stay with a boyfriend because I am afraid of anyone discovering hwo my body looks. My father and mother dont know and not only am I too embaressed to tell them but I dont think they would be able to fund a surgery for me anyways. This defect has kept me from feeling confident and being genuinly happy. I think about it all the time. I dont feel sexy without my close and I pray every night for a normal life and body. I have not visited any surgeons yet but if this website starts helping out I know I have to. I have researched the procedure and it involved the surgeon to make little cuts in the tissue in order for it to expand. In some cases implants are not needed. This is what Im hoping for, the doctor to just fix my breasts so I can have a natural normal looking body. I am really embaressed to post any pictures but you can find it online or contact me for more information on my specific case. Thank you so much for being the first people to read my story. Sure feels like a lot lifted of my shoulders!