“If you light a lamp for somebody, it will also brighten your path” - Buddha
HELLO, WORLD. First of all, thank you for clicking and reading this. For safety reasons, my identity is a secret but other than that, you can learn all about me and my work at my Tumblr (the link is listed below. I will be ecstatic if you can check it out later). It's an introduction about the real me, my dream to make a difference in the world before I die and all my campaigns to achieving it. But I'm struggling to stay alive, let alone achieve it because some of my problems might even kill me before I can do anything. So, I'm raising this fund to help me stay alive and make my mark before I die. And its success depends solely on the kindness of strangers because I have no one else to turn for help. I'm all alone here. So, I would be eternally grateful if you could find it in your heart to help me. Or else, I'm doomed. I will start off with my dream before going into my problems, so please read until the end to fully understand the depth of the hole that I'm in.
I see the world and think differently. Also, I have been an outsider all my life. So over the years, I accumulated all these unique ideas and stories that I want to show the world before I die. There's maybe some benefits to them and the world might want to hear them out. I already ventured into an online t-shirt designing as my starting point. From there, I will venture into graphic novels, fiction books, TV & movie scripts, etc to bring them all out. The slideshow above shows the few that I can afford to create for now. The rest will be even better but you can see the potential there. That I can do something wondrous with my life and my marks if given a chance. Make a real difference in the world. Do good. I already assigned part of my profit to be donated to a variety of charities depending on the cause that I'm promoting. In the future, I will do more. I just want to know before dying that I made a big difference in the world and that I mattered. But I need someone to believe in me and my dream first. Because I need proper training from a real learning institution to create the rest of my marks. All I have now are bits and pieces that I got from YouTube but there's only so much I can learn from it. First year of illustration course and some allowances (food, bills, transport, etc) that I will need while I'm learning (I have to do it full time) is all I'm asking. The skills and the extra time that I acquire will help me create a lot more to make this venture successful enough to continue on my own. Because achieving this dream will help me solve most of the problems that I have and open up the door to all my other unfulfilled dreams. Like migrate to a free country that doesn't persecute gay people because I am one and I'm not safe here. I have no future here either because I'm have no basic rights like be myself, fall in love or start a family. These dreams are the only reasons why I'm still alive. Hope. But it slipping away after so many years of trying and I don't have much time left because of my problems. So, please help me get my foot in the door while I still can.
1) Health - I contracted hepatitis b in my preteen. I'm a chronic carrier now. And there's no cure for it. So I don't know how much time do I have. Everything was fine at first because I led a healthy lifestyle. But then, two years ago, I start experiencing all types of pains at every part of my body constantly. Some from my nervous system. Also, I'm getting unexplained bruises, never healing bruises, swollen lymph nodes (armpit, back), red spots, itchiness, numbness, wrinkled, darkening toes' skin, low and weak urine output despite drinking a lot of water, bowel problem, etc. It's like everything falling apart with my body. And I'm not sure if it's because of my hepatitis or something else. Also, I did a blood and urine test a while ago that ruled out UTI or diabetes (normal glucose level) but there were red flags with my kidneys (ketones, creatinine, etc. were very high). And there's no way for me to find out any further or do anything about it because I don't have insurance (couldn't afford it). So, I need fund to find out and fix it (if it's something else) or at least delays it (if it's hepatitis b) before they kill me. And in addition to that, I have another problem that needs immediate surgery. It's quite embarrassing to say what it is even under anonymity. All I can say is that it will cause me excruciating pain, blood clots, infection, gangrene, sepsis and even death if I don't fix it soon. So, the fund will go for that too.
2)Danger - Currently, I’m being harassed by a bunch of drug addicts in front of my house. I have tried everything but nothing is working. Asked them politely, didn't work. Confrontation will definitely end badly for me. They are way younger than me but bigger and outnumbered me. Asked my other neighbors to band together to scare them off but they are scared instead. Some moved, others turn a blind eye. Called the cops but they are doing nothing. Besides, the first time they came, these addicts fled, only to return when the coast is clear. And all I got was my house vandalized, urinated and defecated while I was asleep. I can't relocate either because I couldn't afford it. All I need is a security system for now to deter them from doing drugs here and to protect me and my house as I’m living alone. Because one of them just come out from jail for stabbing his mother (on her shoulder, she lives) and another one just went in for slashing my neighbor's, a mute lady, throat (she lives). And the rest have all sorts of other criminal records too. So, help me stay alive until I can afford to get the hell out of here.
3)AvPD - Growing up, I was abused by most of my family members. And it messed me up for good. Having problems like AvPD (Avoidant Personality Disorder) to name a few. I avoid people because I have problem interacting directly with people. Just the thought of it give me profound anxiety. And it doesn't help that I'm abnormal too. It's like I don't know how to be a human. My brain has problems processing stuff like normal people do, so I can't communicate like one either. Having a hard time fitting in. Have no connection with anyone on this planet. I don't even leave my house much. Also it's hard for me to have a job because of it. So I'm doing this t-shirt designing venture to support myself because I can finally utilize my abilities, I enjoy and passionate about it and it's very AvPD-friendly. But so far this venture has failed to launch. Soon I will run out of money to buy foods, pay bills and even get evicted. So, help me manage living with AvPD.
4)Lifeline - I'm ashamed to say it but I'm failing miserably at life. I think I'm cursed. You have to walk a mile in my shoes to understand why. All the things that I dreamed of didn't come true. What I got instead are the total opposites. Every plan I made failed. Every move I make leads to an even worse state than I was before. Bad luck everywhere I go and everything I do making everything harder than it should be. Hurdle every step of the way only to lead to a dead-end every time. Problems keep piling up and I'm drowning in it. And everywhere I go, every phase of my life, I always get people who always make my life worse than it already is (abused by my own family or those addicts, for example) even though I always keep to myself and don't disturb people. Troubles find me always. Shits happen to me always. Physically, my body has all kind of health problems ever since birth and now in grave danger. Psychologically, I was abused so badly that I'm a damaged good now. All through my life, I face hardships. Nothing goes easy for me. And I never get any break. Everything is always beyond my control. Everything is always against me. And the walls are closing in on me and there's nothing I do, works. And I'm always all alone here, fighting and holding on. And no one can hear me screaming. And all these are causing me severe depression with suicidal inclination. Because I really can’t help myself but feel like I am a mistake here. That I wasn't supposed to be here in the first place. And the planet is trying everything it can to rectify "the mistake". I'm spiraling down toward what I feared will be my humiliating crash and burn demise. And the little voice in my head keeps telling me that it only gonna get worse from here, that I should end it now before I hit the ground hard and that the only solution to all of my problems is death. But so far, I manage to keep them at the bay. But every morning, I wake up and ask myself, why bother? Because there's no more strength or zest for life in me to go on anymore. Even a small simple task feels like an impossible task nowadays. And there's too much weight to be carried. It's like there's a large boulder on my shoulder and it doesn't allow me to do anything else. All I can do is carry it as long as I can but I fear, one day, not too far off, I will not be able to anymore and it will crush me to dead. So with no pride, option and energy left in me anymore, I am asking you, please save me before it's too late.
Sorry to lay all these on you but I really can't do this on my own and I have no one else to turn to for help. I'm alone here. No friend or family to help me out because of my abused past, my AvPD and my aberration. So, I'm asking strangers because I believe people will want to help even if the other person that is struggling is a total stranger. It's what makes us human. And I have faith in humanity. Or else, the world is right about me, I do not belong here. All I need is $10,000 and I can take it from there.
|$10,000 - 12% (GGF fee) = $8,800 - $3000 (1st year tuition fee) = $5,800 - $3000 (1 year's living expenses while learning full time) = $ 2,800 - $300 (security system) = $2,500 (for the embarrassing surgery + find out, fix and delay my health problems)|
I wish I had the money or some other way because it's a bit degrading to ask people for money. But I wasn't born into money and have been dirt poor ever since. Broken, damaged, too many flaws and very down on luck to accumulate the money that I need.
So, how can you help?
All I need is 5-10 dollars from you, that's all, you wouldn't even feel the pinch. And then, share my campaign with your social network or else this plan wouldn't work. Hopefully, your friends and family will do the same too. Little by little, they would add up to reach my goal in time. And if you can, support me by buying my apparel instead? Because if there are only donations made, I will surely be lying dead in the gutter somewhere then because I only get the fund 2 months later due to this website's very long clearing period. I'm sorry 😔. Finally, if you decide to help me, thank you and I promise you, I will pay it forward one day, somehow.
Twitter (Follow me here as I bring out the rest of my marks. Also, there's a special tweet I made for this campaign that you can retweet)
Tumblr (aka my world domination manifesto. Read all my marks' full stories here)
Store (Check out or buy my apparels here)
Instagram (if you bought one and liked it, take a picture wearing it and tagged it #millionsofmarks)
*Sorry, no Facebook. I never use my personal page but on my business page, my marks touched on social and current issues. So, they banned me*