So, I’ve got a lot of shirt going on in my personal life right now, mostly family issues. For the past 7+ years? I think? the whole thing has been taking a huge toll on my mental health.
My mom's been sick, and all of the doctors and specialists she's gone to see haven't come up with any ideas as to what's wrong with her. I'm pretty much her primary caregiver right now. On a bad day, my dad gets verbally abusive when my mom and I both beg him to do more than the bare minimum to help. On a slightly better day, it's like pulling feet trying to get him to help. I will admit there are some stretches where he does help with no problems. My younger sister is somehow allowed to go running around the world for a year before she transferred from a university here in the US to one up in Canada with money my family can't afford to spend (she's always gotten basically anything she wanted her whole life, and I'm the one who gets told "no, we don't have the money" or just straight up "no" most often). When she is around, she doesn't give a shirt how miserable things are at home because a) I'm pretty sure my dad refuses to tell her exactly how much my mom's health has declined, and b) she gets verbally abusive, too, whenever my mom and I try to explain.
On top of all that, getting a job at a used book store was hard enough with Aspergers, and getting a new job in the more than 4.5 years since my last one went out of business has been harder, so I’m kinda financially screwed right now. Not to mention that everything with COVID is going on.
My family life and mental health are getting worse, and I really need money to get out of the house for some sort of short vacation, since right now, getting out completely is out of the picture.
I had been using a gaming channel on YouTube and a book blog on WordPress to keep me distracted during all of this since I can't afford actual mental health care, but even those aren't working at all anymore, especially since all my crowdfunding attempts to keep those running with new material have all failed.