Meet my family after 22 years

Hi all, let me explain me story towards u.

I'm a 22 years young male from Holland. Ever since I was born I was raised by my mother.I never knew my dad and aged 6 child care took me away from my mom because she got ill caused by the fact she had to raise me on my own and having back injuries. She developed schizofrenia and I had to live on in a strange new family I did not know.

Living seperated from my mom and feeling lost and betrayed on such a young age I didn't fit in in my new 'home'. They had everything you could offer to a kid but I missed my mothers love. After 11 months child care judged I could move back in with my mom. Unfortantly this didn't last long, but different from the first time I could live with my blood family now, my mothers oldest brother and his wife and children. My mother was living only 15 kilomter from us and I finally felt safe and home again.

 I had a good youth, had many friends and I felt happy. Getting older and seeing my cousins move out of there parents house there was a itchy feeling growing in my belly when i turned older. When I looked around me, everybody knew his dad and mom, together, seperated or some past away but they all had a history with both of them. So I felt alone and I became unsure about my own identidy.

I knew my dad was originally from Lebanon and i had seen 1 picture of him, but that was about it. My mom really suffered from voices in her head and paranoia and hallucinations that I wasn't able to figure stuff out trough her. So I invested for myself and after 1 year of hard searching ( also with help of and private detective ) I found him!

It was a big relieve and it felt like 1000 kilo wight was lifted of my shoulders. We started to band really fast and took an DNA test to be sure. He is Lebanese and I was raised dutch and 100% felt like one.So here I was, 18 years and finally having a mom AND dad, but also a new family with a different culture and from a other country. When I started to learn him better I learned he also didn't llive an easy life. He left my mother because his family made him marry his far cousin. He was addicted to the casino and when he started to bettering his life he had big depts left. But having a dad in my life automaticly ment having more family... here starts my issue. Most of my family lives in Australia and its impossible for me and my family or friend to save such amounts of money because my mom is sick and lives on a small maintenance and my dad has creditors in his neck every month.

So here I am, knowing I have plenty of family, living in Australia I have not met for over 22 years now, and I'm dying to meet them. My cousins have children and I would love to see them at this age. This is my last chance. The money is for a visum, plaintickets, luggage and other necessaries. Every donations is welcome and every dollar is welcome. (Sorry for the bad English)   Julz